Where has all the motivation gone?
Thursday, December 08, 2011
What happened to me?? I lost my motivation that was getting me through my new life situation (hubby working away from home and me being a "single mom" of three children). I was doing so good, and I remember how I was able to keep my cool during the stress...and than poof, it was all gone!
Now here I am, back up in weight, stressed out a lot, and yelling more than I should. I feel helpless and out of control of myself at times...this is not good, none of it!
What am I supposed to do? Well, for starters I can exercise again...and than change my eating habits. With those two small things I can see myself gaining control back...and the health benefits!
I need to drink my water instead of the nasty pop that I started drinking again...everybody talks about the energy they feel from water, and I always felt it too...and now its lacking with all my pop consumption. I want that energy back!
My exercise has become non-existent! This is not good at all! I owe not only a gym membership, but more than 10 exercise videos (one for every season, mood, etc), weights, bands, ball, high-speed internet with access to SP videos, heck even a treadclimber! Really, what is my excuse? Not a dang thing I guess! I can find the time, if I want to...and now I need to!
Food...how I love and hate thee...I was always the girl who could eat what she wanted, not exercise and still be thin...haha, I grew up and had kids! I can no longer be that girl, and those habits of not caring what I ate as a teen and early 20s girl need to stay in the past with the age! I NEED to pay attention to what I eat now! I can't just go grab a snack and say oh well. Not only are my bad eating habits weighing me down...literally...they are making me more tired. I am sure of this. I am not getting enough of the things I need, and too much of the things I don't. My body is mad and not functioning at the best of its ability. Very true fact and I know this as well as everyone else! (Now to do something about it than!)
Sooo...I KNOW what I need to be doing and not doing. I have the tools in front of me...WHY AM I NOT DOING IT!?!?!?!
Today is a new day...and my brain is yelling at me to change my ways...I just need to find the willpower and motivation to listen. I really plan to make changes...I got a tape measure and found out what my measurements are...ouch! I thought dealing with my weight was hard...that's the easy part to handle!
I am going to change...starting today...after a quick nap (hey I have a teething baby who has kept me awake for almost three nights straight...and she's still sleeping! I know I need sleep too, so I will take it when I can get it!)
Have a good day and MOVE your body...I will be!!