Accept the reality of the loss
Wednesday, December 07, 2011
As I accept that things will never be the same I look to old comforts that include sleeping more and eating sweet and salty foods with little nutrition and many calories. Escaping into TV, the computer or reading. Nothing that makes me move. Having to encourage myself away from those activities. I am still here and my mother and my lovely friend are not. I feel guilty for the days that my food obsession kept me from being with them.
I feel guilty for the times I slept rauther than make that phone call or walked across the steet. So today I forgive myself for my past actions and resolve to Accept that I need to learn to nurture my self in ways that are different.. I am active and have more people in my life. I will be conscous of my goals to love the people who are alive and want to be friends with me today.. I will accept the invitations to friendship and love as they present themselves to me today..