Tuesday, December 06, 2011
Not much new. I am continuing. I am not really losing. I am making myself struggle. I am not stopping the struggle and I don't like it. I am hoping that writing it will bring me back to reason. I realize that I want to be thin more than I want the treat. But, my inner critique is telling me that it does not matter. I just really doubt on some level that I can be less than 200 pounds.
I am so close but part of me refuses to believe even that. I need to be strict or at least planned. It might be OK to have the treats if I limit them. This all or nothing thinking is really bogging me down. Time to let go.
Time to realize that I am making progress that can be seen.
Time to bravely face the possibilities of the future.