Monday, December 05, 2011
I'm mad. Just plain mad. As many of you know, I suffered a miscarriage in October. All emotional stuff aside, I had gained about 20 pounds in the pregnancy, and I just cannot seem to shed that weight!!!
I was down to 195- only saw that weight for one day. I held kind of steady at 197... then the pregnancy hormones kicked in and I started gaining. I got up to 217 and now, I have been bouncing between 208-212 ever since. And I just can't seem to shake it.
I stay within calorie range... some days I am under a little, but not enough to go into "starvation mode." I do cardio for AT LEAST 60 minutes a day but a lot of days I get in another workout of 45-60 minutes. And nothing.
I have gotten some new workout DVDs- Bob Harper- and they all use weights. I know I have built some more muscle because I can see it, but there's no way that's what causing my weight to stay the same.
I'm just so frustrated. I am hanging on to pregnancy weight from a pregnancy that didn't even work out, and that adds to the emotions of it. It's like true extra baggage and I just feel that if I could shed these pounds it would help. I am good, emotionally, from the miscarriage. My family and I have accepted that something was wrong and everything happens for a reason... but still.
I'm sure you know what I am talking about.
I just NEED to lose this weight so I can move on 100%. But my body says no way.
I'm getting desperate to lose again. Maybe if I up my water to 12 glasses a day instead of 8? Maybe if I workout more? Eat more? Eat less? I HATE this game!
Why does weight loss have to be such a simple concept but SO hard to acomplish?