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Finding My Way Back

Sunday, December 04, 2011

Lately, I've been dealing with a lot in my life and I am simply letting go.
It feels soooooo good to say that. I have been holding on to things for so long that are either out of my control, or that will never change unless I take the initiative. It's so important that I understand that I am only human and God would never expect me to be any more, so why do I expect me to be so much more than that.

I am so ready to just stop hating myself and feeling bad about myself when I am beautiful the way I am. It's so easy to get caught up in a certain standard of pretty that is put out there and I am not buying into it anymore. I am finding myself. I am finding my way back to me again.

For so long I have been trying to be something I am not to fit in or to appear less weird or nerdy or something else. But the truth is that I am weird and a bit of a nerd and that's okay, because its me. I am in a place where so many things have been going badly. I haven't been able to find a job, money is getting tight at home with my family, I am losing my scholarship, my classes are getting tougher, I am having horrible eczema issues, I am having issues with my father, and about a hundred other things. I am letting all of them go and moving towards a place of happy. Many of these things can be worked out in time, some things are beyond my control, and some things I just need to get over. But one thing is for sure, I am going to find my way through all of the issues and pain and drama and everything with God right there with me. I am setting myself free from it all. Finally!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SHAWNEDA 12/7/2011 8:15PM

    Hey weird nerds are the new HOT! (This is what I tell myself when I get excited about weird nerdy things. Remember Steve Jobs was weird and a nerd...jussayin.) Keep sparking!

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SIOBHANKNITS 12/4/2011 6:08PM

    Woohoo! Congratulations! Being true to yourself is so important! Hang in there!
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OFF938 12/4/2011 4:13PM

    It is your independence day!

I, for one, am thrilled that you are freeing yourself to be yourself. The best part of living on this earth is meeting people who are different from ourselves. It enriches our lives to include those who have different outlooks, different views, and different opinions. It opens our minds and our hearts so that we can be inclusive, not exclusive.

You have unlocked a huge secret to true happiness. Love yourself first. The rest will all fall into place. Congratulations!!!

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