I had a bit of a rough Thanksgiving, for no good reason! I was here at home, which I thought would make my exercise/diet plans easier. But, I guess I was lonely/depressed/bored/stresse
d - I ended up eating a LOT more than I should have, and exercising a LOT less than I had planned!
Also, Chris was in town, and we had 3 dates in one week - with a lot of eating out that didn't help my diet any! Oh well, I just have to forgive myself and move on. I'm actually really proud of myself for admitting my mistakes on here - I was tempted to just pop back on Spark and pretend it hadn't happened, and not update my tracker to show the 3-pound gain... justifying it to myself that "Oh, I'll lose it back quickly, and catch back up to where I was."
But what if I don't lose it quickly? And even if I do, isn't it better to be realistic with myself, that this journey isn't all about an easy straight-line slide downwards on my weight graph? It's real life, and it's tough, and the path is twisty-turny sometimes - I've just got to stay on it.
My struggle with deciding to update my ticker with the gain led me to realize that it's important for me to really let myself SEE when my weight goes the wrong direction, and acknowledge it. In fact, ignoring small increases in weight - that eventually snowballed - is what let me regain so much weight over the last 4 years! When I eventually transition into maintenance, it's going to be SO crucial for me to be in the habit of regular weighing, and not ignoring 3-pound shifts. My life in the last 4 years would have been SO different if I could have caught myself at a 3-pound or a 5-pound increase, rather than just ignoring the little gains and letting them accumulate over the years...
So, with that in mind, I'm back at 164 on my ticker. Maybe it'll be a little lower by tomorrow's last weigh in with the BLC, but even if it's not, I'm proud of myself for being honest. And I'm proud of myself for losing during the BLC, no matter what the final number is. I think it'll be over 10 pounds (I started the challenge at 175), so that's not too shabby!
In reading more of Bob's book, he discusses emotional eating and gives a formula for how to intervene and change our habits. I like its simplicity, and am paraphrasing here:
Step 1: Recognize when you're feeling a strong emotion, or a strong craving to eat, or both. Stop what you're doing!
Step 2: Breathe for a moment, and let yourself FEEL whatever you're feeling. Recognize it (and thus create a little emotional distance).
Step 3: Open yourself up to a higher power / the universe / your community of love. This sense of connection opens a space within us for changing behavior.
That's it! And as I'm still struggling with cravings a LOT after my week-long Thanksgiving indulgences, I'm thinking I'll have a lot of opportunities to practice this formula!!