Anti-Train: Day 23
Monday, November 28, 2011
Do you feel that your weight holds you back socially?
Dang man. Whatís with the hard questions??? I hope there are some easier ones coming up. (Yes, I jacked and re-wrote a bunch, but I donít remember the order. I do this specifically so yíall get how Iím feeling the day of the question, not how I felt three billion years ago :P).
Once upon a time, I would have said no. These days, Iím going to say yes-ish. Itís been a long couple of years and Iíve been beaten down, emotionally, a lot. Whether itís intellectually with school, or weight-wise and more with the boy, itís just been a long few years. Now that Iím officially unemployed, itís just that much worse. So, yeah, weight does add into all of it. A huge part of this journey is to gain back a lot of the self-confidence Iíve lost over the last few years, which does certainly get aided by weight loss, because that just makes for one really good day. Iím good at putting on a show, so do outside people generally see the lack of self-confidence? Nope! I do know how to fake it until I make it, so I do have that going for me. It will be interesting to see how I rock my own little world when I get fit and healthy. Iím pretty pleased with the trajectory at the moment, so hereís to keeping that up.
ďIf you want something youíve never had, you must be willing to do something youíve never done.Ē ~ Thomas Jefferson