Sunday, November 27, 2011
Well I could go on and on about how I regret my food choices this weekend or how I blew everything, but I know that won't do any good. I can't lie, I wanted those things. Moderation would have been nice but eh again can't change that now. I just need to accept it, move on and starting trying again. That's all I can do.
I've been on this journey trying to make it work for my own personal lifestyle and to make those small changes for about 2-2.5 years now. I think I have learned a lot but have trouble applying it. I have trouble sticking to a routine because I can't always do it perfectly and I'm a perfectionist almost to the extreme. I'm also still just super bummed that I can't really workout at all to get a big enough calorie burn for what I need. I'm so ready for it to be fixed and to be able to do the workouts that I love to do.
I've been trying to start this journey over again, and to keep God in it this time around because I know now that without him there's no way I can do this. (I know not all of you agree and I just ask that you respect my religious beliefs and I will do the same for you.) Since I am such a Type A, perfectionist, control freak it's really hard to "let go and let God." I know and believe truly in my heart that I will be skinny and healthy someday, and that I will be free from this food addiction. I know that it's not going to happen over night and there are no magic pills and that it's going to probably for me take several years to do simply because of my addiction, and my PCOS which keeps me overweight. I know those aren't excuses and I am not using them as such I am just being realistic. If I'm not realistic then I will just be even more disappointed when I set my hopes too high. Those of you who are religious and who have lost your weight what are some tips you can give me and the other readers out there? How did you keep God in your journey how do you let him have control?