Tuesday, November 22, 2011
A midst all of the chaos I call my life , I find myself crying inside, dying a bit, losing myself in sadness.
So I am changing that right now... I am changing my attitude to an attitude of gratitude!
I am grateful that my four children are healthy, have families to love, and most of them check in with us almost daily and two of them really want us involved with their lives.
I am thankful that my parents are still on this earth. I have five siblings within 50 miles of me. My dad-in-law and my brothers-in-laws are together up north.
I am thankful for my husband, who loves me good, bad or indifferent. We have raised four kids with the many challenges of being a step-family. When we became empty nesters - we grew even closer to the other. I so deeply appreciate this good man in my life.
I am so thankful for my friend, Maureen. I do not get to see her very often, but we keep in touch and try to do lunch about every 4 weeks, but tends to be about 6-8 weeks.
I am thankful for the jobs we have.
I am thankful for the many things that clutter my house but not my heart. The photos of family times spent together - I would rather see my kids and grandkids and play together. The books on my shelves that clutter the dust, that at one time gave me pleasure, now just give me one more thing to clean. I am thankful. The music and movies that sit on the shelves for lack of time to indulge. I am thankful. The many hobbies that are sitting in wait for me to finish or to start... sometimes I am not sure which end is which... I am thankful.
I am thankful for my computer in which I can write this blog, track my stuff, and post to my spark family and friends.
I am thankful.
I am most thankful to God, for making me His child. I love seeking His face and feeling His peace upon my spirit when I need it the most.
I am thankful for the little country church Don and I attend, where people are accepted for who they are and shown God's love no matter the circumstance.
I am so thankful.
Many moons ago, I used to do a thankful box between Harvest and Thanksgiving. On Thanksgiving our tradition was to read the little notes tucked inside. It has been a few years since my family and I celebrated Harvest, so the tradition was set aside. I think for the next four weeks, I am going to pull out my thankful box and write myself little notes to read on Christmas Eve.
I am so very thankful.