Tuesday, November 22, 2011
So, I went to the gym after working 4-midnight tonight. I felt good about going, and started off with an hour on the elliptical. The longest I had done before that was 30 minutes. Then I went a did some strength training (I had an hour session of strength training earlier in the day), then I finished off with 30 minutes on a stationary bike, and some time in the massage chair :P
I hadn't checked my blood pressure since I started working out, so I figured I should do such. I have high blood pressure, which is one of the things I hope to improve with the weight loss. I found an iPod app to log my blood pressure, so that I could keep an eye on it. It also asked you to input your weight. I hate scales. That may be a sentiment you share. The idea of standing on a scale anywhere that wasn't my own bathroom is terrifying. The gym had 2 other people in it at this time though, so I thought it would be safe. I thought to myself, "At least you know you haven't gained any weight". I had my weight taken last week as part of an assessment at the gym. Well, turns out I have gained weight! I couldn't believe it. I haven't eaten fast food in 12 days, which is amazing for me because it was a staple in my diet before. I haven't eaten fried food, and have been eating healthier than I have in a long time. I'm eating breakfast every morning for the first time since I was young enough to have breakfast made for me, and have been to the gym at least once a day every day for the last 12, excluding two Sundays, one of which I worked out outside of the gym. I can not understand how I have gained 4 pounds.
At first I was really bummed. I felt like all the work I had been doing was pointless, and I really was going to be stuck being the "fat girl". Then my mind told me that I needed to try harder, a concept that is good on paper, but one that while running through my head at this time went to some unhealthy options. That's not what I want to do. The fact is, I feel better. I can't believe it has only been 12 days, because the changes I feel are incredible. I have more energy, I sleep much better than before, my stress has gone down an unbelievable amount, I feel stronger, more motivated, and just better about myself. Yes, it was a bit of a downer to see that number on the scale, but it isn't all about the numbers. I feel proud of myself for committing to going to the gym as often as I have been, eating breakfast, staying away from fast food, and steering my life in a healthy direction. Yes, I want to lose weight, but it isn't all about the numbers on the scale. It's about being healthy, and feeling good.
Also, if you're interested, my systolic blood pressure is still slightly high, but not nearly as much as it was! My doctor will be happy :)