so get over it.

That's what I keep telling myself, but it doesn't work. I'm still angry and depressed and just plain tired.

I've got a little over a month to go before I get my sleep titration study. (That's where they fit you for a CPAP machine for sleep apnea.)

I'm losing weight, slowly, but surely so that's a good thing.

I think my biggest problem is that my grandmother is becoming senile. Quickly. She's started being cranky and forgetful all the time. Everything is my fault. (She dropped her glasses in the trash can and insisted on looking for them in places they couldn't have possibly gotten. Like on top of cabinets that neither one of us could reach.)

I'm trying to deal with her problems and mine and lose weight at the same time. It's not easy, but I'm not going to let someone else cause me to stop trying to take care of me.

That is my promise to ME!