Monday, November 21, 2011
I lose 2 pounds, gain 2 pounds, lose 2 pounds, gain 2 pound, then, I give up.
This is my weight story. It is what I have been doing since I can't even remember.
Here is the conversation in my head.
Me to self: "Hey! I lost 2 pounds even with that one terrible food day this week and ordering a full fat mocha coffee thingie with whipped cream last night!"
Self to me: "Kewl! That must mean I can pretty much eat whatever I want everyday, and still lose weight!"
Me to self: Yup...pretty much. This whole diet thing is really a piece of cake. (wanders off in search of said piece if cake).
Me to self: Darn! (or something much harsher) I gained and all I did was have one yummy snack every day and a few days of food free-for-all. It just isn't fair!
Self to me: awww, you poor thing. Go finish that noodle soup with crackers and the last of the cake, and we'll get after it! We'll start fresh again... tomorrow!
Second verse, same as the first.
Here I sit with the same goals and the same attitude. Who was it that said "if you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got"? Paraphrased... but you know what I mean.
It's Monday, it's 7:15 am, and I know I need to do something different, I just have no idea what. I need to do whatever it is starting today, not tomorrow, next week or next year.
Have any of you been here? If so, how did you break the cycle? I have been dieting for the past 30 years. THIRTY YEARS! I want this to stop, NOW!
I know I need your help with this. Spark friends, please.
I so want to do this this time and not just keep spinning my wheels.