Sunday, November 20, 2011
Sometimes I just need to scream. I need to rant and rave and vent about things just to get them out and then it is like a weight lifted off my shoulders. I firmly believe that letting things out is one of the best ways to stay positive. Sure, maybe during my vent I seem completely insane with negativity or "feeling sorry for myself", but think about it this way. I am only human...if I don't get those things out, then they will remain inside me and never go away! It is like throwing out the trash. Once it is full, if you don't get it out then it starts to completely stink up the house and that is ALL you can think about is that nasty trash!
I have to stay positive because no one else will do it for me. I have not been working out. My eating habits have been horrible. I am actually surprised I have NOT gained any of the weight back that I lost. However, my intentions are good to get back on track. I know what has been holding me back. I have been insanely busy lately, mostly because I have been picking up overtime at work for the past month. I have decided that once November is over, I will not pick up anymore OT this year. I want to instead work on my personal goals. Get back to eating healthy, working out daily...I need those to become habits that I cannot stop! I also want to have free time to enjoy my life. Spend time with family and friends, go to the movies, spend time on Spark and read again. I miss reading so much!
These are my goals and I am slowly but surely going to make them my reality. I have a very short work week coming up with only Monday and Tuesday so I think I can have some time to myself to really get a plan going. Right now I have a horrible cold. I am on meds for a ear infection. I can't breathe I am so congested and my neck is in so much pain that sleeping has really become difficult for me. I need to shake this! I will shake this and then get healthier and happier! :)