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Saturday, November 19, 2011

When I had a goal of walking a quarter marathon, I walked.
When I had a goal of swimming from Alcatraz to the mainland (until it sold out and I missed out) I swam.
When I was headed toward my 20 year class reunion and hating the idea that I was soooo heavy, I lost weight.

It's strange. I set a goal, I work toward the goal and *gasp* I accomplish things. It's just astonishing. *eye roll*

It's time to reboot my reboot, which was totally hosed by my work getting in the way (it's hard to reboot when you don't have time even have time for adequate sleep). Time to get the show back on the road!

I'm not giving up. I'm not giving in. I may be up a few pounds, but in the immortal words of Lindsey Buckingham (I saw him live a few weeks ago) "I'm Never Going Back Again". It sounds better when he sings it than when I say it.

The point is that this is a marathon, not a sprint. A half marathon, a slow marathon, but a marathon kind of deal all the same.

I started this whole thing, mentally at least, about 13 months ago. At that time I was a dirty smoker. I couldn't swim more than 2 lengths at a time and 15-20 total. I weighed over 300 pounds. I was headed toward shopping at Omar the Tent Maker's Clothing Emporium. My self esteem was total crap. I felt like a failure as a female for my inability to get knocked up. On and on and on. You should have heard my internal monologue... actually, I wouldn't wish that upon anyone.

Anywho, I'm up a few pounds, but relative to this time last year, I'm seeing wins all around.

I did a quarter marathon this year. WIN. I couldn't do 3.2 mph for an entire hour before.
I can swim a mile without batting an eye and I've had to buy a new smaller suit. WINNNNNNNN.
I have tried yoga and Zumba and running and spinning and kickboxing.
I've learned that my skin and my hair and my mood are all improved by "eating clean."
With the exception of a lovely cigar last month, I'm smoke free and not quite irrationally pleased about it. Insanely pleased, but not irrationally. :)
Did I mention that I actually like exercising? Seriously. This is a stunning development and may result in some sort of "we interrupt this programming" kind of event. Seriously. I like to exercise. Whodathunkit? Check it: I miss exercise when I can't do it. Freakish, huh?
I've done some intensive internal work on how I talk to myself. A lot. It was harder than getting my large self on the treadmill at unholy hours, but I did it. I'm prouder of that than I am of the smaller pant size.

So as much as I am completely underwhelmed by my current stall and small gain, I'm pretty freaking overjoyed when I compare today with this time last year. (If you know me at all, you know that it can be really hard for me to set aside my overachiever ways and look at the bright side, so this is a major accomplishment.)

Digress, digress, digress.... as usual. Ooooh, shiny things.

I need goals, big ones. Little ones. Meaningful ones. Motivating goals. I need to have a goal that is important enough to me that when I think about it, I put down the fork. A goal that helps me say, "No thank you, I'd rather not have that delicious cupcake, sprinkled with cracktacular goodness of indescribable tonguejoy, I'd prefer to be thin."

So, here is a partial list for 2012, which I will need to add on to rather extensively:

5Ks. Lots of them. Warm ones, cold ones, fast ones, slow errrr, faster ones, lots of ones where I don't have to dodge people with strollers. 5ks for good causes. 5ks for silly reasons (we have a dead celebrity run around here somewhere).

I'd will jog/run an entire 5k in 2012 without having a massive heart attack and dying or wetting myself during the race.

Half marathon, I may not run/jog the whole thing, but I'm doing one. Preferably The Pig in Cincy. It's possible, Pig. (Slipping Princess Bride references into my writing whenever humanly possible isn't ADD, it's just who I am.)

Swim from Alcatraz to the mainland. I'd like to do the Sharkfest, but with school and such I'm going to take what I can get on whatever date I can get it.

Weight that starts with a 1.

Be able to do a yoga inversion. A cool one. One that makes me feel all yogini and such. A handstandy type one maybe. The kind of thing that makes new yoga people look at more experienced yoga people and think, "I could never do that."

I want my belly to be far smaller, so it quits getting in the way of yoga poses.

I intend to meet some Spark peeps, who may be disappointed that I'm not funny in person. Has anyone heard of a meetup for 2012?

My final goal is to fail miserably at all of my weight loss goals in 2012. My biggest goal is to gain 10 pounds in 2012. I plan to fail, and be bigger around than I have been in my entire life. I intent to be ginormous in 2012. I plan to get pregnant.

Anyone else looking forward to 2012 with some goal setting?

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    You might be surprised at your weight gain when you get pregnant. My experience with myself, friends and sisters, was bigger gals often gain significantly less -- I attribute this to 2 things: eating healthier and just being more in tune with my body. I gained 17 lbs with my son and a measly 11 with my daughter (and she was a 9 pound baby).... Best of luck with ALL of your goals for 2012!
    2262 days ago
    Love that list! Can't wait to see your progress on them as you check them off!!!
    2276 days ago

    Congrats on all your successes to date - that's fantastic progress! Especially the mental goodness, that's really good stuff. And trying all the different types of activities! I like that.

    You're a wonderful writer - very funny indeed - and I'm definitely subscribing to your blog! The "It's possible, pig" quote made me laugh out loud (for real, not just the "LOL" kind). I'm sure you're just as funny in person.

    I love that you're aiming for lots of 5k's and maybe even a half! I became a (somewhat podgy) runner about the same time I joined Spark (both were waaaaay long ago) and I love love love it. Doing a half will change your world! (Just go slow - that's the secret.) Here's wishing you the very best luck with it all: no dying or wetting yourself, 5k or half or any length of race.
    2279 days ago
    I love the reboot the reboot. So much of this reminds
    me of things I need to do myself.
    2279 days ago
  • LILLI56
    Every time I got pregnant, I ate more healthy, and I lost weight. My last child (who is now 31) I started at 168, and when I went for the last appt before his birth and I weighed 174. I went home from the hospital weighing less than I did when I got pregnant. Now what happened later when I gained all that weight and then some. Good luck with all your goals. You inspire me, I think I will sit down after Thanksgiving and make a list of my goals too. Thanks Jen
    2280 days ago
    Loved your blog. Good luck in 2012 with all those goals and have fun with the trying to get pregnant (if at first you don't succeed try try again emoticon )
    2280 days ago
    I love your attitude, it's filled with SUCCESS emoticon

    Stand strong with the voices in your head, sounds like you have them in line. Slow and steady does it.

    2280 days ago
    Excellent blog, I wish you every success with your goals and I think I should start thinking of some of my own!

    2280 days ago
    Great goals!
    2280 days ago
    Great blog! I also need utterly and completely goals.
    2280 days ago
    What a great Blog, You have so much to be proud of you are an athlete and you care about your body and take care of it.

    I hope you do have a baby next year!! I loved being pregnant, it was so easy to say no to the things that would "not be good for baby". It can be hard from some people, I had pretty good pregnancies. And there is that sweet ending where you hold that little one for the very first time!

    Great goals, I need to set mine yet too. I have goals for finishing out the year, but I haven't set my new year goals yet. Thanks for the reminder!!
    2280 days ago
    A goal that helps me say, "No thank you, I'd rather not have that delicious cupcake, sprinkled with cracktacular goodness of indescribable tonguejoy, I'd prefer to be thin."
    This made me laugh SO HARD!!! thank you!
    And I agree with the goal setting. Good luck with your goals!! emoticon
    2280 days ago
    I want my belly to be far smaller, so it quits getting in the way of yoga poses

    --HA!!!! Don't I know that feeling!!!!
    2280 days ago
    You are just so funny and I bet you would be in person as well. Go for all those goals with gusto. I know you can do it. Have a Happy Thanksgiving.
    2280 days ago
  • FLYING2007
    You go Girl!!!
    2280 days ago
    LOVE! All these goal blogs are making me think I should really be considering some 2012 goals myself. I think I may be joining you in wanting an epic FAIL at the end of 2012 with reaching my weight loss goals. :D Here's hoping! CHEERS!
    2280 days ago
    My goal for 2012 is to reach my fitness/weight goal and then successfully transition to the maintenance stage of weight loss. My next goal is to set some challenging and realistic fitness goals for the year. I know, ironic to have a goal to set goals, but there it is.
    2280 days ago
    YAYAY! Great blog!!
    2280 days ago

    this was a nice read! really inspirational!
    2280 days ago
    2280 days ago
    Thanks for helping me realize that despite gaining back 4 of the 5 lbs that i lost and losing my focus, I can get it back...have a wonderful Thanksgiving! emoticon
    2280 days ago
    2281 days ago
    M favorite was the goal of have a smaller tummy so it won't get in the way of your yoga poses! My hips got in the way of some of my half-plank poses today. Oh well ... I was still lifting twice the weight of most of the girls in my class! I'd like to see them try it! You go girl!
    2281 days ago
    I think I will set a measurable goal! Yea! This is a fun blog!

    2281 days ago
    Awesome blog. I totally feel you. I so hope that you reach your goal of being ginormous by the end of 12.

    I am on this journey because of my little ones. It sounds like you are on your journey for your future little ones.
    2281 days ago
  • MINDA31807
    Excellent goals.
    I don't know if you have heard of Chalene Johnson's 30 day Accountability challenge. It is all about setting goals, becoming more accountable and succeeding at life. I did it in January, and even though I stopped doing most of the after 3 months, I have still completed 7 of my 10 goals I wrote down the first week of this year. Reading your blog made me think of the challenge and the fact that I signed up for her newest challenge related to her book coming out in January.
    2281 days ago
    Great blog! Thanks for sharing!
    2281 days ago
    Great blog!!! U can do it!!! :)
    2281 days ago
    Terrific blog.
    2281 days ago
    emoticon for writing such an inspirational blog! You are an amazing person!
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  • JSPIN74
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    2281 days ago
    I laughed through your whole blog and then cried at the end - I hope you accomplish everything you are setting out to do.
    2281 days ago
    Good luck with everything! Great blog!
    2281 days ago
    You've inspired me
    2281 days ago
  • LADYBUG546
    Awesome blog.... why not stretch and be flexible this 2012 this I mean incorporate yoga maybe or to stretch further than you ever have run that 10k as you know deep down you can run the entire thing....see it is Shoot for the moon but if you fall amongst the stars you stretched and learned to to be flexible with it.
    2281 days ago
    I'm a goal junkie. My family is considering an intervention. I just can't help myself. Maybe my new goal should be to cut back on new goals. emoticon
    2281 days ago
    Awesome blog! Awesome way you "put yourself out there!" My goals? Run a 5K on pavement...I can do it on a treadmill, although it takes me a while to recover. I might even try it in public again....although last time I came in DEAD LAST!! HUMILIATING! Oh well, we work to overcome whatever we want to overcome....thanks for all your words! Go get 'em!!!
    2281 days ago
    It is good to have goals! I am starting to work on my 2012 goals. It is going to be a great year!

    2281 days ago
    Great goals!! Do you live near Cincy? I live in Cincy and have wanted to walk the Pig., but don't have any interested parties.If you want a partner to walk it with you, count me in

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    Happy Thanksgiving

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    2281 days ago
  • BEAN0202
    This was so great to read! Thanks for sharing! The way you write reminds me of the way I think a little :P Keep up the great work, and you can definitely achieve your goals! I will definitely have to set some for myself after reading this! emoticon emoticon
    2281 days ago
    I love your observations and revelations. Great goal setting for next year - hope you meet them all! It's been a great 2011 for you so keep it going.
    2281 days ago
    great goals. I like the way you write :)
    2282 days ago
  • REENIE131
    Awesome goals, I hope you hit them all! You've also inspired me to think about my 2012 goals. I know that one of them is a half marathon in April, but I need more!
    2282 days ago
  • B00KWRM
    emoticon Very inspiring emoticon
    2282 days ago
  • KIPPER15
    Love your blogs. You can do this. emoticon emoticon
    2282 days ago
    oh yeah yoga belly: bound side angle pose, anyone? I'll settle for just being able to touch my rear to my heels in child's pose. I'm lying, I won't settle. I soon as I can do that I'll move on to another goal. My goal is that I will move on with a sense of accomplishment, and not just a denial of my awesomeness which has me focus only on the things further down the road. To that negativity I say, Stop it now and I mean it!(Anybody want a peanut?) emoticon
    2282 days ago
    You inspire me. emoticon
    2282 days ago
  • TIFFY0906
    emoticon - Great goals for 2012
    2282 days ago
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