Saturday, November 19, 2011
There was a time when I would say that I felt no different, but that's no longer the case.
I notice that I use my hands more now when I'm trying to get up from a seating position. I don't remember when I started that habit.
There are fine lines on my face; where did they come from?
As the weather cools I am aware that I have knees and other joints, and sometimes they pain a bit.
Oh the joys of growing old . . . and I'm not being sarcastic, since there are joys.
I have more wisdom, patience and understanding now, or at least I think I do.
I realize how important it is to tell someone how much I care before it's too late.
I'm learning the art of letting go of stuff, both materially and emotionally. For example today at the car dealership I found out that my warranty expired on October 29th. My car radio was shorting since the beginning of October. If only I had gone earlier. I fussed with myself for about 15 mins and then I recognized that fussing made no sense. It wouldn't change anything. Guess I will be without a radio until I can afford to fix it. Time to move on.
So what does a year older feel like? It feels painful sometimes, but overall, it feels good to be alive. I can spend time with my daughters and grandson. I can share holidays and celebrations with family and friends. I can still be productive as I work towards my goals and dreams.
For me, a year older feels like an immense blessing for which I am very grateful.