Saturday, November 19, 2011
I was able to get myself up and running today - literally - which is something I don't always manage to do. It occurred to me a couple weeks back that the practice of being physically active first thing (or close to it) would help set the tone for my day.
My running is really more of a walk/jog thing that I do on the wrap-around cement balcony of my apartment building. I warm up by doing all 4 floors twice, and then I jog a length and walk back, on all 4 levels, a few times. At this point I'm doing more walking than jogging, and each burst of jogging lasts about 30 seconds.
Do I have a mileage or time goal? Not really, at least at this point. For right now it's all about process, rather than destination. The goal isn't to make a certain number of miles, or do it in a certain amount of time, but rather to be willing to try something that is a little difficult for me, and to challenge the habit of sitting most of my day.
I've been more "gung-ho" than this. I've been more physically active, logged more miles, lost more weight...and then gained it all back, and then some, when something came along to discourage me or distract me in some area of my life.
I don't want to ride that discouragement roller-coaster anymore. So I'm trying a different approach, taking things slowly, seeing how I feel. Refraining from the all-or-nothing perspective that requires me to achieve every single goal and objective I set for myself, at the time that I said I'd achieve it, or else I'm a "failure."
This journey has been exactly that. I've sometimes had to regroup, and even circle back, to figure out what it is that I want, and what works for me versus what doesn't. I think and plan, then if it doesn't happen the way I planned, I re-think and re-set my goals and then re-plan, until what I'm doing feels like it fits.
By doing this in my academics, I've managed to maintain what I believe is an A average this semester. I've done this with my finances and my personal organization, and have seen overall improvements (not perfection) that I wouldn't have seen if I'd stayed on the roller-coaster of striving for perfection, giving up because I can't attain it, and then beating myself up for giving up.
Allowing myself to make mistakes, not hit my goals right away and have to pick myself up has worked to help me be farther down the road toward overall wellness than the roller coaster ever did. My belief is that this same process will help me to slowly develop the character I need to eventually be living in a healthy body, with a healthy mind, and robust finances.
So, I guess I'll go on running...sometimes. And sometimes I'll walk. Eventually I'll get there.