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Saturday, November 19, 2011

The changes that come with weight loss , it amazes me when i compare where i am now, to where i was about 5-6 months ago.. i know deep down, i have such a long way to go still, although i try to focus on 10 lbs at a time so i don't get overwhelmed. Starting this journey at 315 lbs, i try not to make this about the weight loss (although that has been an awesome perk), but more about a journey of good health, happiness and finding balance..

Many years, i have been caught up in that vicious circle that holds one down, dwells on the negatives and obsesses things that hold me back from living a normal, enjoyable life. As i walk these steps each day and work on changes within as well as physical obvious changes in me, i am reminded of the girl i was merely 6 months ago, and the girl who lived that way for most of her life.. i don't miss that girl in the least, however i am developing a sincere thoughtful side of myself who not only wants changes for her, but for others i could or may inspire along the way..There are so many changes i am noticing about myself these days, some are obvious but most are not - and all of these changes are things i try and celebrate each day, as a means of motivation to keep going.. All of these noticeable changes are proving this journey MORE than worthwhile.. i need this, & i deserve this.. Completely.

The changes i am noticing in me so far:
- my clothes are getting baggy, of course, but i'm fitting in things i haven't fit in for years!
- my facial features, my face has slimmed down alot..
- i've gone down another bra size *yay*
- i can climb stairs without holding a rail and hauling myself up, i can literally just jog up the stairs now for a good work out..this is huge for me..and to run up stairs non stop even.
- Yesterday, i dressed up & actually looked in a mirror and felt "pretty" ..
- i can cross my legs, comfortably (sounds silly, but i couldnt)
- my breathing, when i am walking or exercising has changed dramatically
- my extreme thirst has totally gone away (i could never quench it before)
- i was taken off my blood pressure medication over a month ago now
- energy, energy, energy, i can't get over all of my energy..
- i worked three days in a row (12 hour shifts) and not once did i come home with sore feet or sore legs... i recognize alot of my aches & pains were weight related
- i'm a bundle of smiles everyday - my attitude is so much more positive, and i'm loving that change in me so much.
- my confidence, has grown so much.. i don't tolerate the kinds of people who used to bring me down..nor the bullying - i was bullied a lot.
- my desire to work hard at this journey, changes daily...the more i work at it, the stronger & more determined i get..
- i feel like i have a figure now, my daughter & her friends remark on that a lot..(i'm blushing, heh)
- i am much more aware of my environment when i have a plate of food in front of me, relaxing & enjoying my food a bite at a time are a must..and i can do it now.. food was such a part of my stress, with my eating disorder.
- i am accepting help, with my addiction & ED and accepting i can't do it alone.
- i am petit mal epileptic, and my symptoms are SO controllable now.. i don't take seizures, but i do get extreme dizzy spells , go in deep stares, etc.. i took myself off of medication and i can control my spells with a healthy diet, proper rest, exercise etc.. And it feels tremendous to NOT feel so sluggish and under the weather every single day.. in fact, i cant remember the last time i had a spell, because it's so rare now..(and mostly just if i'm really stressed, now).

Definitely a lot to be proud of!
Once i am in a healthy & happy place, myself and can take on more, i would love to be inspirational and help others.. i will never forget where i was & all the work i've had to do to get where i am.. i love that i am willing to help myself now - and i feel worthy of it!
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    No need to wait, you are already inspiring me!! Love this and am sharing it with the world. Hope you don't mind.

    A woman on my facebook page today had ask people to simply take her off their wall feed because this is what she is concentrating on. Healthy living, and staying motivated. I am gonna post this for her!

    Thank you for sharing. Please keep on doing just that. You do not know how many people you are helping, sparking long this road less traveled.

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    thank you so much, (((hugggz)))
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    emoticon Beautiful Lady!
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    Audrey, thank you... Sincerely..
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    You know, I used to weigh 300 pounds (I'm 5 feet tall) so I understand not being able to cross your legs and most of the things you said have changed. But the biggest change you mentioned is that when you looked in the mirror you felt pretty, don't ever lose that. No matter how much you lose or gain, remember that you are beautiful!
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    Thank you CSDAYS... i do tend to forget to reward myself, though at times the sheer happiness and growing confidence & esteem do feel like reward enough..i should do more for myself each day, especially with my feeling so deserving.. *smiles*
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    Celebrate and do NOT forget to reward yourself--flowers, magazine, alone time etc.
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