Thursday, November 17, 2011
I thought I would be back at work in January and I was wrong. The unrealistic expectations that I had about my back surgery recovery have been very hard for me to wrap my mind around and I have gotten kind of depressed whenever I do something that then becomes mind-blowingly painful. Simple things like going to the mall to do a tiny bit of shopping turns into a desperate need to find the exit to my car - can I make it or will I have to burst into tears in front of all these people? It is just amazing to me that I cannot do the things I used to do and it is starting to feel like I never will.
But, the glass half full side of me knows that eventually this pain will go away and I will be better than before. I can't wait to be able to bike with my family and my bike partner (who is going on all these fun bike trips without me). I really miss teaching and hope that I will be able to teach come spring or next fall. I doubt I will ever go back to lo impact aerobics because the floor is too hard but I am definitely going to go back to spin.
PT has been interesting and painful. I do my exercises daily and hopefully they will work soon!
It seems to be to be a two steps forward, one step backwards recovery. But I look forward to a pain free future -just can't quite see it right now.