I was doing really great for a while. I was using spark or weight watchers or both. I was tracking and eating right and imagine that, I was actually losing weight. Now I have fallen back into bad habits and eat terribly and cannot seem to find where my motivation and ambition have went. Of course I gained all that I lost back and then some. I just want to be healthy and a healthy weight, but cannot seem to find it in me to put for the effort. It is depressing really, and I almost feel like it is a vicious cycle. I am still working out with a personal trainer and have seen results in my strength but nothing else because I have not done anything to change that. So I am giving myself a swift kick in the behind, shaking off the dust and moving on. I will get healthy and reach my fitness and eating goals. No more excuses. I am starting with a clean slate!