Tuesday, November 15, 2011
OK, so I've been struggling with the binge eating on weekends lately (and major sugar cravings!). I've been so frustrated by it and disappointed in myself and lack of will power/self control.
A chiropractor told me the sugar cravings could be a sign that I'm deficient in some vitamins/minerals. That could be, but I can't afford fancy-schmancy vitamins that cost $50 a month to buy! I didn't always have these issues, so I'm thinking it's more stress related.
As I pondered my situation, I came up with a great (and kind of, "Duh, Heather!") solution - one that Spark also advocates and endorses: rewards! I've got my eye on an eyeshadow quad and lipgloss by L'Oreal that I'd love to get for New Year's Eve. We're going to a friend's comedy club and it's fun to dress up and look nice for the night. So, for every weekend I get through without binge-eating I'm paying myself $2. At that rate, I should be able to "earn" the shadow and lipgloss by New Year's. It doesn't leave much (if any) wiggle room for mistakes, which means I better not make any! Or, if I had to give up one item, I'd let the lipgloss go. But that's not my goal! I really plan on working for these items, and when I think I want to go back for seconds or pig out on some treats, I think "No bingeing! Cute make-up at stake!" And I'm aware that I'm not really hungry, I'm just eating more because it tastes so good or out of habit.
Now, I don't want to give up letting a little loose on the weekends, so I've also tied an "under 140 lbs. on Monday" weight thing to the goal, too. As long as I stay under 140 by Monday morning, AND not stuff myself silly at any point, I will consider the weekend a success and get my $2.
I've also decided to "keep my head in the game," so to speak, I'm doing an exercise challenge of at least 10 minutes everyday - which means no Sundays totally off as I've always done. This last Sunday I did 15 min. Wii Fitness Coach yoga, which since I find yoga so calming and yet it's a good exercise habit/practice, is probably going to be my go-to workout for Sundays (I also like the videos you can find on the Yoga Journal website). I read in a DailySpark blog and FITWHIT's blog about doing something like that, and I've done it before during the holiday months to help keep me focused on my goals (or joined a Spark Challenge team).
So far so good - I weighed in at 130-something this last Monday (even though I technically binged on Friday night, but since the plan didn't occur to me until sometime Sat., and I "made weight" this last Monday, I decided to count this last weekend). I feel encouraged by this little step in the right direction - maybe it's just what I need to get back on track. If it works (and I pray it does!), I may have to think of similar little rewards to keep me focused as time goes on.
The biggest challenges are going to be the holidays - Thanksgiving, then Christmas and the cookies and goodies (I bet there's just piles of goodies about to come my way at work!), not to mention any weekend parties that are planned. But I hope to continue to stay aware - I will of course enjoy what's offered, just in moderation and NOT over-eat.
Wish me luck! I'm pretty optimistic right now!