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Tuesday, November 15, 2011

There I said it. I have been slacking. I have been starting stuff and not finishing it. I have been just been half doing everything I have even attempted. It has got to stop. Something has got to change. I have just been going through the motions. I enjoy watching everyone's journey. I rejoice at people's successes, and I feel bad when they aren't so successful. When am I going to get up and do something for myself? When am I going to realize that I am worth it? Don't I deserve to live life happy and healthy? If so, I definitely need to act like it. I am so sick and tired of myself and the lack of effort I have been putting into everything, and I know that the time is now to turn things around because I definitely don't want things to get any worse.

I am pledging to myself that I will workout on a consistent basis. I had started that, but somewhere along the line, I just quit. Today makes 2 days in a row that I have exercised, and although I feel a little run down, I feel good. I feel accomplished. Of course I want to lose weight, but I know the scale doesn't always budge. I will have to know that even if that scale doesn't move, continuing to exercise will help my heart get healthy. There is more to life than sitting around being miserably fat and uncomfortable. Yes, I am very uncomfortable....eating until I can barely move or breathe. Sometimes I get so upset with myself because it was like I couldn't stop. I have been trying to make a more conscious effort to eat smaller portions because when I don't set limits I will definitely go overboard. Oh how my knees ache sometimes. I get mad at myself for letting it get this bad, but no need to be mad. I have to do something about it. I don't want my reason for expiring early to be that I couldn't win the battle of morbid obesity. I want to actually get out and enjoy life. I don't want to be afraid to live. I know I can do this, and I pledge to put forth some real effort so that I can see some results. If you're reading this and you've been doing the same things that I have been doing, it's not too late. Just get up and do something about it.
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  • KIBA78
    Good luck to you! I definitely understand. We can push and motivate each other through these difficult times! emoticon
    2135 days ago
  • .DUSTY.
    emoticon Let me know if you want to join our BL Holly Jolly Holiday Challenge. The support would be good:)
    2136 days ago
    Yay for making effort though, everyone has those times where they slip of the wagon, but its when you keep coming back that makes all the difference :)
    2137 days ago
    The great thing about when you're slacking is you can pull in the slack and get right back to the business at hand!
    2137 days ago
    emoticon When I go through this I generally need to refocus on my goals. Refind your motivation, what makes you excited about getting healthy. And try not to beat yourself up too bad. Today is a new day and a new start.
    2137 days ago
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