Tuesday, November 15, 2011
There I said it. I have been slacking. I have been starting stuff and not finishing it. I have been just been half doing everything I have even attempted. It has got to stop. Something has got to change. I have just been going through the motions. I enjoy watching everyone's journey. I rejoice at people's successes, and I feel bad when they aren't so successful. When am I going to get up and do something for myself? When am I going to realize that I am worth it? Don't I deserve to live life happy and healthy? If so, I definitely need to act like it. I am so sick and tired of myself and the lack of effort I have been putting into everything, and I know that the time is now to turn things around because I definitely don't want things to get any worse.
I am pledging to myself that I will workout on a consistent basis. I had started that, but somewhere along the line, I just quit. Today makes 2 days in a row that I have exercised, and although I feel a little run down, I feel good. I feel accomplished. Of course I want to lose weight, but I know the scale doesn't always budge. I will have to know that even if that scale doesn't move, continuing to exercise will help my heart get healthy. There is more to life than sitting around being miserably fat and uncomfortable. Yes, I am very uncomfortable....eating until I can barely move or breathe. Sometimes I get so upset with myself because it was like I couldn't stop. I have been trying to make a more conscious effort to eat smaller portions because when I don't set limits I will definitely go overboard. Oh how my knees ache sometimes. I get mad at myself for letting it get this bad, but no need to be mad. I have to do something about it. I don't want my reason for expiring early to be that I couldn't win the battle of morbid obesity. I want to actually get out and enjoy life. I don't want to be afraid to live. I know I can do this, and I pledge to put forth some real effort so that I can see some results. If you're reading this and you've been doing the same things that I have been doing, it's not too late. Just get up and do something about it.