Right now my big push, my main push is to sign into SparkPeople every day. Somehow spinning for points makes a difference. And then my push after that is to log those calories - the mass of stuff I put through my lips.
A book I enjoy listening to every now and then - I check it out from the library is The THIN COMMANDMENTS. It is read by the author who has a great Eastern States Accent - I would guess New York, but I am a life long California girl. One of the Thin Commandments is that you plan what you eat. You don't just eat this and that, mix and match and expect results. I have a hard time not being spontaneous. And not doing whatever I want to do at the moment. I work full time, so obviously I do have to do as expected or as I am told, etc. I think that then I put all the balance of freedom of choice onto my plate and palate. Plus I am easily persuaded. As soon as I hear a food I like on an ad, I want it. Now. I have learned to recognize that and laugh at the immaturity of it.
This makes me want to blog about the power of naming something. If you can dig out the name of what it is, and call it out by name, recognized that it is not your core you, I think it is very helpful, if not even powerful. When I see the Olive Garden ad, and then start thinking I want pasta - I can say, whoa there, IMPRESSIONABLE MIND. That is not even an ORIGINAL THOUGHT. That there is an ad plant. And it is not for me. Forget about it.
But if the food is in front of me, gifted to me, I have a horrible time not choosing it. This morning, GoGo - Gourmet Gordon - who is a true love of a co-worker made PUMPKIN CHEESECAKE - probably with his homemade cheese. He prepares his foods with constant prayers. I had to have it. BUT - I had a very small partial piece and ate int mindfully and it was breakfast.
Then after lunch a friend (who is my boss's wife) sent me Biscotti. I ate it. I did not eat all of it. But I ate more than I needed to for just a treat. Still figuring out how to handle that.
I did take a couple of baby steps toward making good choices, though, and am not entirely unhappy with my tracked food today.
And the big win, pat myself on the back is that I tracked it all. No cheating on that.