Monday, November 14, 2011
I'm frustrated and find myself spending time at work trolling the internet for some magical answer...never a good idea. I'm gaining weight - not that you can tell from the ticker that I refuse to move up. I'm not 213 and change. I'm at 218.2. There. I said it. I have gained oh, I don't know 5 POUNDS in the last few weeks. Of course I attributed the gain to period water retention and waited and waited and waited for it to fall back off. Nothing. S**t. It's not water.
I'm working out pretty regularly and working my butt off when I do. Cursing that one can't lose weight simply through exercise. If it's not water, not exercise. That means only one thing...my eating. The one thing I HATE to change. I love food. Not all food. I don't love lima beans, peas, tomatoes, cucumbers or any thing from the melon family. I love food that tastes good and has absolutely no shred of nutritional value. For an added bonus, I love all food that has a ghastly amount of calories. Yep. That's what I love. Pizza? Crave. Candy? Where...it's mine. Chips? Whole bag please!
I've done the weight loss math more times than I can count. I want this process to be a simple math equation. Eat this (even if it's crap calories), expend this and you get a 1-2 lb weight loss each week. But it doesn't work that way. For a few weeks, I eat the calorie amounts, meet my exercise goal and . Right. Nothing. Turns out it's not simple math. It actually matters WHAT you put in your mouth, not just the calorie count of what you eat.
This realization makes me want to pout. Stomp my feet. Take my ball and go home. In short, it makes me want to quit.
I review other people's daily food logs and think "how in the world can they eat like that!" Spinach? Cucumbers? And it seems as though everyone eats a lot of the same things day after day. I'm in trouble.
This leaves me where you ask? It leaves me scouring the internet in desperate search of something that will click with me. Thinking of going low carb for a while. See if that triggers something. I'm borderline IR, so the low carb thing makes sense. And if I go low carb, I have to give up the crap food I covet so much. Don't know what I'm going to replace it with exactly. Seems more searching is needed. Also thinking about easing up on exercise. I know that seems counterintuitive, but I read on SP that you should first try getting your diet to the point where you're losing 1-2 pounds per week. THEN you should add exercise. Seeking feedback on that idea so chime on in.
I have confessed my sins for the day. Must get back to my internet searching.