Monday, November 14, 2011
I regret to say that this weekend was a falling off the wagon weekend. I went to family parties. I ate too much. I even had a drink for three days in a row! And I didn’t track a thing! Horror!
But I found out some things:
1)I don’t feel like beating myself up! I don’t feel like starving myself for a day, or over-exercising to counter it. I’m not berating myself and picking at my flab. I know that Monday, at my designated time I will do my killer workout at the rec no matter who looks at me funny for counting down out loud or between breaths saying “just a little more, you can do it.” I also know that the calorie counter is waiting for me to get back on track. And that fact comforts me. While I am not exactly happy about the 2 steps back, I know what to do and how to handle it. For a perfectionist that is a huge accomplishment.
2)While I know I overate, at no point during the weekend did I feel so stuffed that I could just explode, I really didn’t even feel uncomfortable, just pleasantly full. I can stop before I go too far! I actually can control myself somewhat by monitoring how I feel.
3)I will tell anyone who listens about spark people. All of my cousins are working hard to lose weight and keep an exercise schedule; one even told me she writes down everything in a note book and calculates it by hand! Too much brain work for me. In listening to them I realized that while they may all have slightly different goals, spark people can help them too. And I truly want to share this feeling with them; they need to experience it too! Spark people is not something that should be kept a secret, and it’s free for good granny’s sake!
4)You shouldn’t spend too much on clothes when you’re only halfway to your goal. Once again I am having the underwear issue and my new skinny jeans are not fitting like skinny jeans.
5)I cannot drink like I used too. I am officially a cheap date light-weight. I guess this is a good thing because I really shouldn’t be drinking all those empty calories anyway, not to mention I spend less money. But really I was drunk off of one beer, good thing I was at home!
6)The better you think you look comparatively, the more others will look at you and agree… especially your boyfriend.
7)Lastly, to quote my friend “just because it comes in your size, doesn’t mean you should wear it”
Maybe once in a while it is good to fall of the wagon. It makes you test yourself and stop and think about how far you have come in other ways than just your central weight loss goal. So dont worry about me, I learned how to run, I'll catch up and jump back on.