Saturday, November 12, 2011
I should feel awful but I don't. I probably stayed within 100 of my daily alloted calories. I don't feel awful but I do feel a little uncomfortable about it. Actually, I feel disgusted with myself. This is how my "going off the wagon" usually starts. I give in to a craving and then convince myself a little won't hurt, but it does. I'm addicted to food. There are certain trigger foods I know to stay away from. Frozen yogurt (nonfat at that) put a good 20 lbs on me last year.
I know what caused me to do it and I'm commited to eating healthy once more. I had spent the prior night in the emergency room. Got 4 hours sleep and then off to another emergency room where we waited and waited and waited. I got very hungry. My dinner was about 2 ounces of frozen yogurt, half a bag of pretzels and a pina colada smoothie. Absolute deliciousness.
Boredom, stress and anxiety have always triggered me to eat.
I started having the insane "you deserve it after what you're going through" talk with myself. So ridiculous. I deserve to lose the weight I've put on and start feeling good about myself again.
I'm happy to say the Pina Colada didn't start a binge and I'm back on track with my eating.