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I Had a non alcoholic Pina Colada & Frozen Yogurt *gasp*

Saturday, November 12, 2011

I should feel awful but I don't. I probably stayed within 100 of my daily alloted calories. I don't feel awful but I do feel a little uncomfortable about it. Actually, I feel disgusted with myself. This is how my "going off the wagon" usually starts. I give in to a craving and then convince myself a little won't hurt, but it does. I'm addicted to food. There are certain trigger foods I know to stay away from. Frozen yogurt (nonfat at that) put a good 20 lbs on me last year.

I know what caused me to do it and I'm commited to eating healthy once more. I had spent the prior night in the emergency room. Got 4 hours sleep and then off to another emergency room where we waited and waited and waited. I got very hungry. My dinner was about 2 ounces of frozen yogurt, half a bag of pretzels and a pina colada smoothie. Absolute deliciousness.

Boredom, stress and anxiety have always triggered me to eat.

I started having the insane "you deserve it after what you're going through" talk with myself. So ridiculous. I deserve to lose the weight I've put on and start feeling good about myself again.

Temporary insanity.

I'm happy to say the Pina Colada didn't start a binge and I'm back on track with my eating.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SNOWANGELDIVA 11/12/2011 7:14PM

    Can I be selfish and be admittedly transparent with how timely your vlog is?
My 'going-of-the-wagon-start' is my mother's icing and it's cake time around here. My excuse's "okay' because it's birthdays. Like it takes her 1000 calorie 200% fattening icing right to 0 cal?!!
Like a friend on my feed said tonight when I mentioned my binge...first step is admitting...
My next steps were OWNING and ACTION.
Like you outlined in your blog the reasons for you are: to let go of the weight and start feeling good about yourself again.
YOU ARE WORTH the care.
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