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Whazzup wit' me lately? ...

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Although I do have an excessive amount of arthritis in my knees, especially my left, the orthopedic doctor I saw regarding the numbness in my left knee due to a recent fall, ruled out my problem as being “joint” related, and thought it to be “vascular," and suggested I see a heart specialist. Well, I took his advice and made an appointment for November 10.

After examining me, he came to the conclusion, “there’s a lot of work to be done." His initial diagnosis is Congestive Heart Failure (CHF), Pulmonary Hypertension, Venus Reflex Disease, and Sleep Apnea (I was aware of the latter), and has scheduled a battery of tests for me over the next month.

My biggest disappointment was to see the fluctuation in weight since joining SparkPeople—from 267 down to 241 and now up to 274. That’s 33 lbs. Although my doctor attributes most of it to water gain and has me on a duretic—it's still so discouraging.

If that wasn't bad enough, my primary care doctor prescribed insulin shots until I get my blood sugar levels and weight under control. Yesterday was my first time, and I have to admit, it wasn’t as bad as I had thought.

My attitude lately has been, “Gloom, despair, and agony on me--Deep, dark depression, excessive misery. If it weren’t for bad luck, I’d have no luck at all--Gloom, despair, and agony on me.” That is until I was reminded deep down in my spirit that my life does not depend on "luck at all." If it did, I really would have reason to despair. The heaviness lifted when I remembered what God says about it, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” (Jer 29:11). So, do I know, specifically, what those plans are? Of course not—but I have total trust in the One who does. And as I call upon God daily in prayer, I will come expecting Him to show me great and mighty things I can't even imagine (Jer 33:3). And regardless of the outcome, my hope is still in Him.

So, what is MY part in all this? It is to get up each and every day and attempt to do what I know to do—I don’t even have to be perfect at it. That includes going to work each day, eating healthy and exercising, taking my shots and meds, loving and praying for my dear husband and family members, enjoying my church friends and the friendships I’ve made on SparkPeople. But most importantly—I will continue to trust God. With a plan like that--what more could a girl ask!

Your prayers are much appreciated and I'll continue to keep you posted on whazzup wit' me.

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    You are obviously a very strong woman. Your faith in God will get you through this. Over the last few years I have learned more than ever to put my troubles in God's hands knowing that my family is safe with him, whatever his plans for us.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you.
    Cindy emoticon
    2318 days ago
    You are so incredibly kind to think of and pray for me when you, too, have so much to endure. I will hold you in my heart and in my prayers. Together - emoticon we can do it....
    2319 days ago
    I am SO SORRY you are having to go through all these medical problems! That being said........your attitude is TERRIFIC! I'm afraid I would be STUCK in the gloom, despair, agony on me for a long time!

    Hang in there.........blessings to emoticon
    2319 days ago
    You are so right, God has many blessings waiting to be bestowed upon you. I know he has truly blessed me this year. After 5 years being on oxygen 24/7, I am only using when I go to the gym now. What an improvement that has been. Keep your diet steady and healthy, work out as much as you can and hopefully you will be able to control the diabetes with your diet and get off the shots.

    Know that is going to happen and before you know it, it will!
    2320 days ago
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