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    VANILLAMAMA   31,487
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What is to be expected.

Friday, November 11, 2011

I guess I am finding out that a lot of men out there just want sex. Although I do agree sex is a big part of a relationship it isn't everything and I am no where near ready yet.

Three days ago my ex got mad at me for something I did and told me he cheated on me for two years before he left. His excuse for cheating is that he wasn't in love with me anymore.

There is never a reason to cheat. Just get out. For heavens sake.

Anyhow I am stuggling emotionally from this. It ishard to know that when he was having sex with me he was out there doing the same thing with other women.
I constantly blame myself. I wonder what I did wrong.

I need to stop. He is the one that did something wrong. He is the one that has issues. I do not. The only issues I have. He created. He would tell me I am jelious and insecure for no reason what so ever.
I guess that is him saying he is guilty in a way huh. I wouldn't ever cheat on anyone. It is wrong and I do not do it.

I honestly miss being embraced by someone else and the affection shown. I crave that attention.....

I enrolled in school! emoticonyep. I start the beginning of December. It is a 7 month course and I will be completing it all to better myself and my childrens future.

I can do this. I dropped this weight and I can do anything I put my mind to doing.



Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JONICACALDWELL 11/11/2011 7:05PM

    "There is never a reason to cheat. Just get out. For heavens sake. " You are so right. Take care of you and emoticon for enrolling in school.

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MISTYBLUE716 11/11/2011 4:41PM

    he's a loser. I don't understand how some can do that....its in the past..and you're better than that now!!

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    Guys are such losers, seriously. It's not you it's definitely him. Whatever problem he had he didn't want to fix it, just ignore it. We will find someone worthy of us someday but after over 2 years I do miss being held by a man.

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SANNYJIMBO 11/11/2011 12:22PM

    Always remember: YOU are number one. You don't need him, and one day the man you deserve will turn up :)

Good luck with school!


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FITNESSMONSTER8 11/11/2011 11:47AM

    Good job on moving forward to create a better future for you and your children!!! Don;t let your ex bring you down he's not worth it. emoticon

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ADVENTURESEEKER 11/11/2011 11:20AM

    You can do it! Woohoo to bettering yourself with school and a healthy lifestyle!

He is saying those things to try to hurt you further. Hold your head up and be the better person- I also think cheating is very, very wrong.

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