Friday, November 11, 2011
I guess I am finding out that a lot of men out there just want sex. Although I do agree sex is a big part of a relationship it isn't everything and I am no where near ready yet.
Three days ago my ex got mad at me for something I did and told me he cheated on me for two years before he left. His excuse for cheating is that he wasn't in love with me anymore.
There is never a reason to cheat. Just get out. For heavens sake.
Anyhow I am stuggling emotionally from this. It ishard to know that when he was having sex with me he was out there doing the same thing with other women.
I constantly blame myself. I wonder what I did wrong.
I need to stop. He is the one that did something wrong. He is the one that has issues. I do not. The only issues I have. He created. He would tell me I am jelious and insecure for no reason what so ever.
I guess that is him saying he is guilty in a way huh. I wouldn't ever cheat on anyone. It is wrong and I do not do it.
I honestly miss being embraced by someone else and the affection shown. I crave that attention.....
I enrolled in school!
yep. I start the beginning of December. It is a 7 month course and I will be completing it all to better myself and my childrens future.
I can do this. I dropped this weight and I can do anything I put my mind to doing.