Thursday, November 10, 2011
So this is the third time I've had to write this blog, since the hotel internet connection keeps timing out before I hit Post. Each time I've written it, I am more annoyed with my whininess, but I am going to try a shortened version.
I need help.
I almost reached my goal weight three and a half years ago. Since then, I keep digging myself deeper holes and creating more bad habits and bad feelings.
I'm tired. I'm unhappy.
Although food/weight is not the only issue in my life, it's certainly not helping. I eat poorly and too much, and my body feels bad. Then I emotionally feel bad. Then I eat even worse. I know what to do! Eat less, eat healthier. In that order. Keep improving until the weight loss occurs to the extent that my body feels good again.
But I don't think I can do it. I don't think I'm capable.
I don't know if I can fix myself. I don't know if it's possible.
If I don't believe, it won't happen.