Thursday, November 10, 2011
I've been on this journey so many times before. I'm panicking now because having lost 6 and half stone (91lbs) but I find myself slipping into old habits.
I felt so sure that THIS TIME it would stay off forever, but now I see that my lovely size 14 (UK) clothes are getting tight and the scales show an increase of 10lbs. I need to stop this NOW.
I know what the problem is - I've started secret eating again. I feel so ashamed of myself that I crave this instant gratification without thought for all the hard work it has taken me to get this far.
On my way home from a meeting last night I heard the end of a radio programme which was about bad habits - and that is exactly what I am falling back into - a bad habit.
So, the radio-man said that if you wrote everything down (doh!) then you would be less likely to overeat or slip up because it was there in black and white. I opened my inbox this morning and a really inspirational blog got me fired up again and it occurred to me that I had stopped recording on my Spark Page the daily intake of food!
THEN - my sister called to say that it was a beautiful day and we should go for a walk along the coastal path...
These 3 things happening one after the other may be coincidence but I feel happier and have a sense of 'rightness' that today is the day I get back on eating to live and not the other way round.
Never shared these things with anyone before so it's nice to keep this angst diary xx