Wednesday, November 09, 2011
Tomorrow my mother would have been 86 years old. She passed away 11 years ago and it feels like it was just yesterday. I miss her so much. She was the matriarch of my family and she was my best friend. Since her passing I have no family but my two children, my partner and three dogs. After she passed, because she did not leave a Will my brothers and sister turned on me making my life a total whirlwind. I guess someday I will forgive them and I know I should but it is so HURTFUL. I still feel the pain they caused and because of it I seldom fall into a depression.
I am trying my best to seek help for my depression. I have been very strong in the past years but sometimes I feel very weak. By weak I mean I eat, play unnecessary games on the computer instead of interact with my children and partner. I don't feel like doing anything but sit around. I know this is not healthy and I know my mom would not have wanted this for me. So, I need to seek help.
Happy Birthday Mom - the memories of you I cherish in my heart always, Diana~