Slap in the Face and Punch in the Gut
Friday, November 04, 2011
So I had my yearly physical this week and found it awkward and crushing. At this point in my life and especially after having my son, being up on the examining table in a skimpy robe doesn't phase me. I also wasn't surprised to learn that I had to get my cholesterol and glucose levels checked. Having PCOS causes a predisposition towards heart disease and diabetes so this is normal. And finally getting a diagnoses and script for my athlete's foot was relieving after suffering through it for over a year. But what really irked me was the doctor herself. This was the first visit with a new doctor, but I thought, how different could it be from what I've been used to for the past decade?
Well, very! She wouldn't look at me except for when she did my physical exam. She kept looking at the computer and typing information while asking ME to watch and verify what I said was correct or not. REALLY? I'm not a medical doctor! If I describe my conditions and you type in your chicken scratch it's not my job to make sure it makes sense. I can't read that medical jargon!
Regardless, as she was going through my family history and typing all my info, she casually said, "And you have some weight to lose because you are obese." For all the hard work I've been doing these past months with Spark's help, it sure didn't make a difference to her! No, she didn't ask or know if I've recently lost weight. At this point I just wanted to leave because of how awkward it all felt. I mentally brushed her off, but she came back with a 4 page primer on what to do to lose weight. Small potatoes to what I can learn here on Spark and nothing compared to what I learned in school. All she could reference is how lucky I am to have my son because PCOS comes with such a high risk for miscarriage and infertility. Well, this I know, but still doesn't detract from the fact that I experience a body that doesn't want to lose fat!! Just because I was able to get pregnant doesn't mean I can lose weight like normal people!! HAVING A BABY DOESN'T SET EVERYTHING RIGHT!! I work out til I literally get sick (i.e. this past week or so) and eat a great diet and all I get is "you're obese". Not any questions as to whether I know how to eat or if I work out.
Whatever! Fact is the doctor looked like she had several pounds she could do without herself.