A Sad and Rainy Day
Friday, November 04, 2011
It's a rainy day, here in LA. A rarity. Also, coincidentally, it's been a pretty crummy day.
At the gym yesterday, I somehow messed up my shoulder. While I was doing free weights, I felt my right shoulder straining during the military press. I thought my muscles were just a little tired but as I continued through the workout, my shoulder got more and more sore. I finally stopped and went home but it's been achy ever since. I'm going to have to take next week off from the gym to make sure I heal ok.
I also stayed up late last night talking with my roommate about some of his problems. He's obsessed with finding some form of romantic affection in his life and he's constantly miserable and mopey without it. When I try to point out the positive things in his life, he brushes them off and continues to complain about how no girls are interested in him and he has no form of romance. It's frustrating because there's nothing I can do to help him and trying to cheer him up is utterly ineffectual. I didn't end up in bed until late and I woke up this morning crankier and more exhausted than I have been in years!
I had parked my bike outside of my garage yesterday and it rained last night. In LA! I picked the one day it rains to keep my bike outside of the garage. Oy. So it's raining and I might not be able to bike home tonight which is a darn shame too since I like that extra bit of exercise.
On top of all of that, I have a pretty gnarly headache and had to talk to my ex today. Lately, I've been feeling really sad about losing him as a friend. We broke up 3 months ago but we still tried to be friends and hang out for a while. The beginning of last month was the last time I saw him and I'd basically decided we couldn't even talk any more because it was just too painful for me to be near him. We were really good friends at the end of the day and it's been hard to ignore him and cut him out. It was really getting me down...until my sister told me he's on OKCupid and hit on her roommate a few weeks ago. I mean, I know we only dated for a year and have been apart for 3 months but we were really serious about each other. It's a slap in the face that he's looking for someone else when he was so insistent that we were "meant for each other" and that he would "change to make his life better and make me proud" all that jazz. Having to talk to him (for work...since we used to work together) makes it hard for me not to scream at him even though I have no right to be mad. He's a single man and can do what he wants. It just makes me feel stupid for being so emotional about someone who clearly doesn't know what he wants.
On a lighter note, I'm headed up to Santa Barbara with a friend this weekend which is good. It'll be nice to get away from my mopey roommate for a while and just escape life for a little bit. Anyway, I hope you guys are having an awesome day and making your goals happen.