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Run, Fat-girl, run!

Thursday, November 03, 2011

Normally I go to the Y but I've had three days off in a row (doesn't happen much) and I didn't want to drive all that way every day if I didn't have work, too. So instead I went for a walk yesterday and today. Two-and-a-half/three miles each day.

Today, I actually ran in short burst. I had to talk myself into that. I kept looking to see if anybody could see me--and I wouldn't run on the street, just on the walking/bike path. I'm still almost two hundred pounds and only five foot three. I jiggle. I flap. It's one thing when I'm on the's very low impact. Running? Yeah, I can feel the fat bounce. And I think I have some exercise induced incontienence. So I didn't want to run. I had to keep telling myself 'WHO CARES?'. Who cares what I look like as I run? Who cares what anybody thinks of me as I do this?

So. I jiggle when I run, my fat bounces, I pee a bit when I run hard. I did three seventeen-minute-miles and I felt great. Run, fat-girl, run! It feels good!

(It's been a while since I've updated--and I've not friended anybody. I'm awful in social situations. Sorry.)

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    You are awesome! I have been considering going out at night for "short burst jogging" because I feel physically I can handle it but if I see anyone looking at me and especially laughing at me, I would be done. I think the cover of the dark would make it easier for me :) This fat girl will be running next to you in spirit!
    1911 days ago
    OMG your post made me laugh - the way your write is great

    Good on you for doing it anyway - you are totally right that no one cares what you look like. In most cases they are looking at you and thinking wow I wish I could do that
    1929 days ago
  • SUE5007
    Good for you! Fake it 'til you make might have a runner in you after all. ;)
    1943 days ago
    I know just what you're saying. I think it's absolutely fantastic that you're running anyway. It all happens to me, too, but I've learned to love to run.

    Add a panty liner, get a good sturdy running bra and keep on going! I highly suggest you try the Couch to 5K program (C25K). It's an amazing program...starts small, and it eases you into running. Even better, it's free!

    Great job on finding an alternate exercise when your regular exercise fell through.

    1943 days ago
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