Wednesday, November 02, 2011
I value honesty and loyalty above everything else. I found out that my bosses have been lying about his having a serious illness. It was all a lie. I am not going to go into what is really going on but I am furious and I am disgusted someone would make up a story and make people worry about them and play our sympathy. She sat in meetings and cried and it was all a lie. I can forgive people for mistakes but once I don't trust them anymore I can never get it back. It is just how I am wired. I am putting all my effort into helping my friend get his business going. I do think he is an honest person and even if I have to get a second job this will be a better thing for me.
I also learned that as much as I enjoy sharing things with people on SP it has its purpose and I was expecting too much. I need to use my other blog to share my love of food and other interests in my life. The commonality we all have here is weight loss. What we share is a good thing. I need to find another outlet for my writing as well.
The last thing I learned today is that I am good at what I do professionally. I had a meeting with potential clients, some I had worked with before, and they said very nice things about my work ethic and talents. It made me think about how I let fear keep me working for other people and I need to take the leap and really focus on some personal goals in my life. I can not let fear hold me back. It is not normal or healthy to be so upset about going to work that you choke on bile every single Sunday night from the stress. This is my time.