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SparkPeople is my Hope!

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

I hate the way I look. Through the years of mental and physical abuse I have gained 110 pounds because of emotional eating.! emoticon I avoid going out in public as often as possible because I feel so gross about my body. If I do go out I keep my head down and try not to make eye contact. Being this overweight is physically and mentally painful. I can't fit into certain seats, (I have even broken chairs) I have to walk sideways through a turnstiles, get tired and out of breath easy, just standing up talking to someone hurts my back, I leave an indentation in my bed (anyone looking at it would think it is one of those foam mattresses!), can't cross my legs, men look the other way, and worse thing of all, I love the rides at Disney but I am scared of trying to get on a rides and be told I am to fat.

I want to lose weight, not only for my health but for my self-confidence. But to lose weight I need to exercise, but exercise hurts. So I am stuck. emoticon

But there is hope! Sparkpeople! Through SparkPeople I have been blessed with so many kind friends offering tons of support! I started this journey last year. It has been filled with obstacles and setbacks. But I can not give up. I still have hope. SparkPeople is that hope! emoticon

I am getting my Spark back this week! emoticon emoticon

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
ANNCHER 11/9/2011 10:02AM

    You need to focus positive & never give up. You can do it! Have a great day! emoticon

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DRB13_1 11/4/2011 12:39AM

    emoticon You don't have to become a runner to lose weight or get healthier. I agree - check out the chair exercise group until you can do more. Never give up - the time will pass either way, but you can make major changes by following a plan consistently. Go back and reread some of the success stories.
Wishing you all the best! emoticon

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DAPHNE_RUNS 11/3/2011 6:10PM

    Well you are in the right place for making a change. You are not alone here. Consistency is the key; consistently log on to Spark, consistently read articles/blogs on Spark, start out slowly (focus on 10 lbs at a time, slowly add new goals to your plan, start out with 10 minutes of exercise a day) and love the person in the mirror (everyday).

There are so many things you can do from the comfort of your home to start making changes. I have the Leslie Sansone "Walk at home...Walk 5 miles Fat Burning" dvd; she has a couple of ladies walking at different levels. You watch tv and walk in place the entire episode or just walk in place during commercials.

You can do this. Read the blogs and find a sparker that motivates you and follow that person. See how they are "making it happen". Do not try to do this alone; the more "cheerleaders" you have in your corner, the more motivated you will stay to reach your goal. It looks like you have a few cheerleaders already.

Good luck to you on this new lifestyle.


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CEKER9 11/3/2011 2:12AM

    You are definitely not stuck! If exercise hurts then start by walking and start slowly... walk around your living room until you can do that until the pain decreases. It may take days or weeks to do that. Then walk outside... start at your door and walk a few minutes out and back and increase it until you can walk further. You will surprise yourself as after a while that it will become easier and easier...

Don't try to do it all at once... try it a little bit at a time. Choose one or two things and do them for days or weeks until they become part of your life... like brushing your teeth, then move to the next one.

You can do it... and we're here to cheer you on!!!

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JESS0107 11/2/2011 1:53PM

    Don't give up!! That's the worst you can do. If exercising hurts, can you try exercising that doesn't involve the part of the body that hurts you the most. Start small and don't push yourself too hard. We don't want to see you hurt but this website is awesome, isn't it?

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MO-WALK 11/2/2011 11:35AM

    Glad to hear that you haven't given up. I find SparkPeople helps me stay focused.

Here are some teams that might helpy you with exercise.

Plus Size Exercise Spark Team

5 Minute Daily Challenge Spark Team

Chair Exercise Team

emoticon I will be rooting for you!

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SHERLYN-WILL 11/2/2011 8:47AM

    I hear you and I am rooting for you! Please keep moving forward... I lost 50 lbs and recently gained back alot when my mom got sick.... Yep.. emotional/stress eater here!

BUT BACK on track finally 2 days ago.... I have too... I don't want to feel the way you feel when you go out in public... for I too... become a hermit... and don't want to be social AT ALL!

We can do this...

PS I love your background... that spider looking flower.... I have every year at my house... they are wild and grow like crazy in our field up here by the house! Beautiful flower and weird looking... I have some pictures I took of them.... because they were wildly beautiful!

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CHRYS13 11/2/2011 8:35AM

    emoticon little step at a time!
We'll be here cheering you on!
Blessings to you! emoticon

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1COUNTRY_GAL 11/2/2011 1:00AM

    There is always Hope,always remember that and never give up,You Can Do It,YES YOU Can,tell yourself that.SPARK ON ALWAYS! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Diana

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VICIOUS421 11/2/2011 12:46AM

    emoticon It isn't always an easy journey but I know you can do it!!!!!!

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LOSINGLINNDY 11/1/2011 11:17PM

    Hi, you. I have found so many exercise links to things I can do on the Chair Exercise team. They have links for members at all levels of activity including those in wheelchairs. I do chair marching for my steps and use other chair exercises from their links for core and upper body work. And you can use the links without joining the team. You can reach them through my spark page team list. Good luck. emoticon

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SHELLYKOCH1 11/1/2011 8:26PM

    emoticon Its great you are still here keepin on keepin on! Start with small changes. As far as exercise, start with a pedometer and just walk as much as possible. Try for 10,000 steps/day. I have permanent injuries to both legs, so a lot of exercises are impossible. That's how I started, just tracking my steps and setting goals for each day. I have also found that I must get in 100-120 oz of water/ice tea every day.


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JENJI_RUNNER 11/1/2011 8:22PM

    You have a good attitude. Hang in there and be kind to yourself along the journey.

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