So... freaking... tired...
Monday, October 31, 2011
I can't possibly be getting as much sleep at night as I think I am. Today at around 5pm I could hardly hold my head up and took a 'nap' until 7. I missed all the little trick-or-treaters. Roger said they were really cute.
There is just so much that needs to change. I think that is part of what is making me so tired.
1. I need to get my weight down
2. I need to exercise
3. I need to make those lifetime habits
4. I need to remember to inject insulin before every meal
5. I finally am consistent at taking my meds twice a day every day.
I can't work on everything at once, no matter what anyone tells me to do. It's too easy to get discouraged. I am working on taking my insulin before every meal now, no matter what I eat. That is going to be key in getting my numbers right. Once that becomes an ingrained habit, I'm going to work on the food part.
Which brings me to another dilemma. I am allowed 45 grams of carbs at every meal and two snacks of 15 grams of carbs. (This is my dietician's recommendation, not SparkPeople's). It's easy enough to do that at lunch and dinner where I can eat a lot of non-starchy veggies and some form of protein, but at breakfast, it's really tough. It amounts to something like this:
1 slice of toast with 2 Tbsp of peanut butter, half a cup of high fiber cereal and 1/4 cup of soy milk. (lactose intolerant - something I am hoping will go away as I lose weight because I really miss dairy products! Even lactaid isn't working so I have to forego them altogether)
That will leave me starving in two hours.
The other alternative is to have an egg sandwich - but I can't eat just egg on it (well, I suppose I could if it was all I had - and maybe I could acquire a taste for it.) So an egg, cheese and sausage sandwich would leave me feeling full and satisfied for about 5 hours.
For now, though, I'm concentrating on making the insulin a habit - one I don't even have to think about. Once I get my blood sugar from spiking and dipping, I might not be so fatigued all the time.