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Im on a rollercoaster ride..

Monday, October 31, 2011

Im so frustrated with myself... i really do feel like im on a roller coaster ride... one day im up.. and i feel great and im dedicated to this journey im on .. the next day im falling and i feel as if ive inhailed my fridge before even my first cup of coffee.... why cant i just stay commited? why cant i care about myself as much as i care about others and their feelings? and to make it worse.. its not even a day to day thing.. i mean i could be doing great all day... and then boom.... night time comes and all sensible ways of thinking about food are out the window... i feel like fussing at myself the way i would fuss at my kids when they keep coming in and out the back door.. "In or out.. pick one!!!!!!! " My mind says Im in.. im dedicated.. but just like my kids... as soon as i say im in, im dedicated... i find myself sneaking out the door again... grrrrrrr... well anyway.. today is an in day.. and im trying my best to keep it that way :) Wish me luck and well if u pray... pray for me... pray for strength to stay dedicated ... Thank You :)
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    I agree with all of our emoticon !! Just keep going on the road to a better health and lower weight. It will get done! It's all baby steps and bunny hops along the, like all of us, can and will do it. Try to be less critical/judgemental of yourself, those are the worst kind to create. Baby steps!!
    2094 days ago
    Hey there. How have you been? I hope you're feeling better. Just wanted to wish you happy holidays.
    We've all been there with the rollercoaster. Hell, I feel that way right now! *hugs*
    2111 days ago
    I hear ya. Some days... woohoo.. life rocks. The next... almost like why bother.

    But, every step in the right direction is worth taking... so, I am glad I am on this journey... perfect or not.
    2136 days ago
    I have "triggers" that I think most of us share--frustration, fatigue, boredom, hormones, and a few other obvious ones. I really believe that you identify, you learn and you improve all by choice and we are making different choices now. I have had a couple of evenings that I will feel the munchies coming on and so far my two best option seem to be a long bath or going to bed. You will find a way, just keep hammering at it.
    2153 days ago
    If this was easy, all of us would be slim and svelte, and would never have met each other. :) This isn't about being perfect, it's about trying, about getting up each time we fall down and trying again, just like when we were learning to walk. That was hard, too, but all of us did it. You are going to do this, too. I'm lighting a candle for you tonight. Let its light shine over you and warm you. emoticon
    2156 days ago
    You are supporting your family and helping them. Who is supporting you and helping you keep on track? Keep trying x
    2156 days ago
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    It's a journey and a difficult one. As long as you keep getting back up when you fall, you'll be okay, fall 9 times, rise 10.
    I'm the same way but the further I come the easier it is to not fall.
    2156 days ago
    You're doing so great--just keep chugging along! I find myself feeling that way as well---those cookies I baked yesterday have been torturing me relentlessly--so far I've resisted but who knows if I'll still be able to say that by tonight.
    2156 days ago
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