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Crying is Allowed; Hugs are Recommended

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Just an up-date for those whom remember me and those who want to find out what I am doing now.

After nearly spending all my savings and starting to struggle with paying the bills, I have finally found a full time job as a RN again. I will be working at an in-patient hospice in the Nashville area, I am still in orientation at this point. Don't even know what my schedule will be for this up-coming week, as I need to meet with the director to finish setting that up. I found a couple of my co-workers from my 7 years of working at an area hospital are also working there!

What can I say but Grandma & God won again?/! I never could have predicted how a promise to them at the age of 8 would shape my career in caring for clients with cancer and those who are dying. My heart just seems to be where love can be painful; tears come with the smiles; and the end is just the beginning.

This is most definitely the touchy feely nursing that I like. Emotions can run high: sadness, denial, anger & peace. One moment I may be air planing an infant who has come with a parent to visit; the next crying with a family over the death of a loved one & offering hugs of comfort, as at times that is all I have. Minutes later I may be explaining to a family that I do not fix a thing, but provide comfort, and hopefully healing, to all whom honor me with their loved ones, those whom are dying & those whom must go on living after their loved one(s) die.

I am finding that I am coming back to what God has had in store for me. I have had some hard times in life, so I can soften others falls from similar places. The painful truth can come from my lips as gentle words with a firm tone. By sharing in their sorrow, I learn to release my own, anger, grief, and vulnerability. I get to be a spiritual person, again. One of God's angels, messengers, here on Earth.
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    Your post is a year old now, but still so very profound. It was the hospice nurses that helped me find the predictable and the positive in my very elderly parents passings. Thank you for all that you do. You are an amazing group of people that are extremely blessed.
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    Awesome, good for you & more importantly great that your listening to God & know He has a plan for you.
    2275 days ago
    It is good to see you and that smile back!

    It takes someone special to do Hospice, it is that comfort that will stay with the family for a very long time.
    2275 days ago
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