Crying is Allowed; Hugs are Recommended
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Just an up-date for those whom remember me and those who want to find out what I am doing now.
After nearly spending all my savings and starting to struggle with paying the bills, I have finally found a full time job as a RN again. I will be working at an in-patient hospice in the Nashville area, www.alivehospice.org. I am still in orientation at this point. Don't even know what my schedule will be for this up-coming week, as I need to meet with the director to finish setting that up. I found a couple of my co-workers from my 7 years of working at an area hospital are also working there!
What can I say but Grandma & God won again?/! I never could have predicted how a promise to them at the age of 8 would shape my career in caring for clients with cancer and those who are dying. My heart just seems to be where love can be painful; tears come with the smiles; and the end is just the beginning.
This is most definitely the touchy feely nursing that I like. Emotions can run high: sadness, denial, anger & peace. One moment I may be air planing an infant who has come with a parent to visit; the next crying with a family over the death of a loved one & offering hugs of comfort, as at times that is all I have. Minutes later I may be explaining to a family that I do not fix a thing, but provide comfort, and hopefully healing, to all whom honor me with their loved ones, those whom are dying & those whom must go on living after their loved one(s) die.
I am finding that I am coming back to what God has had in store for me. I have had some hard times in life, so I can soften others falls from similar places. The painful truth can come from my lips as gentle words with a firm tone. By sharing in their sorrow, I learn to release my own, anger, grief, and vulnerability. I get to be a spiritual person, again. One of God's angels, messengers, here on Earth.