weight is just a number
Thursday, October 27, 2011
I've been reading about the criss-cross effects of SparkPeople's program in The Spark and this week I really started to see it in my own life.
I'm starting to connect the dots. The momentum is beginning to swing in the forward direction. I've lost weight, sure, that's motivating, but there are a lot more areas of my life that are changing. I feel more energy, less tired. I don't even drink coffee as often. I know, some of my friends will not find that a benefit, but I do. When I drink coffee, it's just to enjoy it, not because I need it.
I have more confidence. So much so that I did something I never thought I could do after only 2 days of personal pep talk. Yeah, that's a big step forward for me. I've been taking initiative at work. Something my superiors have been wanting to see from me for awhile. I had been holding myself back in fear. Now I'm starting to just go for it. If I fail, I fail. I have a long way to go, yet, but I'm taking the first steps.
And the number one change I see in my life? This is the first time in about 4 years that I'm not dreading Christmas. Christmas in my line of work is synonomous with "most stressful time of the year." For the past few years as soon as the kids go back to school I start to get anxious because every day just gets closer and closer to that evil few months when I feel like I'm working nonstop. Not this year. I still know it's going to be stressful and hard work, but I'm actually excited for the season to come.
So what makes this time different? This is not the first time I've lost weight, and certainly not the first time I've been at my current weight. This time I feel like I'm on a program that I can stick with. I feel like I have results which lead to the motivation to keep going. This time I feel like I have a ton of fans cheering me on with each step forward. And this time I am committed to keeping everything--I mean EVERYTHING--surrendered to God. He is at the center of my life. That means He's the center of my work, the center of my nutrition and fitness, the center of my new confidence. He is the real criss-cross in my life. With His help, I will make it.