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Thursday, October 27, 2011

So lately I have just been becoming less and less motivated to do the normal every day things let alone work out. Its getting to be so frustrating because all I can do is think about how in shape I used to be. I used to walk over 3 miles a day and still did cardio 5 days a week for at least 30 mins. Now I cant even fathom a 10 minute workout and that discourages me even more. I just really need to adopt a new attitude where I stop looking to what I did in the past. I think I'm just too comfortable where I am now, its like I still have 25 lbs to go but i don't feel disgusted with myself like I used to which is what motivated me to workout as hard as I did. Every day I wake up telling myself today is the day you start working out again and by the end of the day I'm telling myself lets see how you feel tomorrow. It really doesnt help that I have no support system at home. My boyfriend is underweight so he has no idea where I'm coming from, a recent really bed battle with depression has left me friendless and I really dont have an family to turn to. I guess all I can do now is try and push myself to be a little more active everyday and eventually...hopefully I will be back on track.
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    It really does help to know you're not the only one going through it. Some people really don't know how hard it is to lose weight and keep it off when you have no one there to help you. I learned the hard way not to ask my underweight boyfriend for help, he always made me feel like that fattest loser on earth when he would tell me not to eat that cookie or I don't need to eat that piece of cake meanwhile he can eat a whole cake by himself and still lose weight. Its even harder when you're battling depression...when that one piece of cake is the only highlight of your day. Thanks for reaching out and letting me know I'm not alone.
    2337 days ago
    Hi there,

    Even though I have alot more weight to lose than you I found this blog completly the same to my story and even though its hard its nice to know im not the only person in the whole world to feel like this. I have suffered depression and even though I have some family and friends to rely on I have never been able to tell people my true feeling about myself as I have always be the fat girl who is always the person to make people happy or laugh when really I wish I could just hide away x

    2337 days ago
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