Thursday, October 27, 2011
So lately I have just been becoming less and less motivated to do the normal every day things let alone work out. Its getting to be so frustrating because all I can do is think about how in shape I used to be. I used to walk over 3 miles a day and still did cardio 5 days a week for at least 30 mins. Now I cant even fathom a 10 minute workout and that discourages me even more. I just really need to adopt a new attitude where I stop looking to what I did in the past. I think I'm just too comfortable where I am now, its like I still have 25 lbs to go but i don't feel disgusted with myself like I used to which is what motivated me to workout as hard as I did. Every day I wake up telling myself today is the day you start working out again and by the end of the day I'm telling myself lets see how you feel tomorrow. It really doesnt help that I have no support system at home. My boyfriend is underweight so he has no idea where I'm coming from, a recent really bed battle with depression has left me friendless and I really dont have an family to turn to. I guess all I can do now is try and push myself to be a little more active everyday and eventually...hopefully I will be back on track.