This is me "before" I began to lose weight in front of my paintings in Santa Fe. Don't I look happy!? My arms are so large they don't even lay next to my body.
I got off-track during 2009 & 2010 and gained -- I allowed the THREE WHITE DEATHS back in:
• WHITE FLOUR
I thought 2011 would be different, and I worked very hard, exercising 2-hours-a-day, eating only 1200 calories-a-day... planning, journaling, recording.... to the detriment of producing my paintings... only to lose mere ounces each week and I surrendered to my body for a season. I continue to struggle.
This is the picture I took when I began to lose weight; then after I lost about 60 lbs. I've now gained 30 lbs back and I could share with you several excuses to tell you 'why!' But I won't.
I am here to tell you that I am DETERMINED! ... I'm starting fresh... AGAIN!!!
This thing that we call ‘failure’ is not the falling down-- it’s the staying down!!!
NO EXCUSES: I never get anywhere when excuses pave the path.
NO EXCUSES: There's a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when it's convenient. When you're COMMITTED to something, you accept NO EXCUSES; only results.
NO EXCUSES: A person who wants something will find a way; a person who doesn't will find an excuse.
I am making this my most memorable NEW START! I'm going to Feed my Spirit (instead of my physical body)! This is the time of year I will begin to plan for Christmas a little...
Remember when you were a kid around Christmas time? The anticipation? The nervous excitement? It’s fun watching children live this out each year. It helps remind me of what it’s like to pour emotional energy into a single moment in time, all because of the promise of a payoff.
This realization had me asking myself this question, “Why Am I Giving Up Before the Payoff?”
I was able to think of many excuses – everything from “my husband tempts me away from the healthiest choices” to “I’m an emotional eater, and I’m going through an emotional crisis”. All of the answers were important to work through because they’re extremely relevant and can help in keeping my commitments.
Another important question for me to ask is, “What Is the Payoff For Me?” In other words, “Why am I giving up donuts and pizza every day for broccoli and smoothies?” Why would I want to wake up before the sun comes up, strap on sneakers, and go for a half-hour walk in cold when the bed is soooo warm?
Then I realized this...
“If my ‘Whys’ are important enough, my ‘Hows’ are easy.” If I'm motivated enough to do something, I’ll figure out a way to do it, no matter how challenging it is.
I need to continually ask myself... What’s that thing that will get me through the difficult places in my health commitments? What drives me to overcome diabetes? What compels me to lose weight? Unless I have something tremendously powerful pulling me through, I’ll remain over weight and never reach my goal.
In the end, the thing that drives me – REALLY drives me - is the thing I have to keep in the forefront of my mind every single day when I decide what I eat, whether I exercise, what to do when I crave sweets, etc.
One passage in the Bible says, “My people die for lack of vision.” What I need is a vision to prevent my commitments from dying. I need not only a plan, (the How), but I need reasons to stick to the plan, (the Why).
This year, I want to give myself an incredible gift!! I want to figure out what my “WHY” is! Discover WHY I want to do whatever it takes to get into the best shape ever, or to have more energy than I did in my twenties. I MUST have a reason – and preferably a time frame – for accomplishing it. It’s up to ME to figure this out.
Take care, my friends. WE CAN DO THIS!!!