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Saturday, October 22, 2011

I want to thank everyone for the outpouring of support that you all showed me on my last blog. It really made me feel so good to have so many friends rally to share an encouraging word and a virtual hug etc...

thank you, it really meant alot to me.

I feel like i am on the upswing. Action is the answer. Sometimes you need to feel the feelings rather that deny they exist but after a while, it is time to move on or else you go backwards. To allow myself to bury my feelings in food would be a disaster. To allow myself a blank check with relation to time off would also be a disaster.

The law of atrophy applies here. things left to themselves go into a state of decay with no outside intervention. To allow too much time to roll by would certainly result in decay in my conditioning and certainly would go against me weight-wise.

I felt something on my cycle trainer that I havent felt in a while. A sense of mission. That is what I was needing. I cant fully describe it but when it blooms in my heart, I become intensely focused. For the first time, I genuinely feel like I am going to succeed in the next stage of my journey. It is my mission to take it to the next level.

This Winter is going to be a formative time. I have nothing planned as far as races go. Rather, this is like a developmental time where what I do now is setting the stage for something really big down the road. Basically I am positioning myself right now. That is my mission. To lose the weight and develop myself to the point where I CAN train for a triathlon.

Sometimes I cannot train like I want due to my schedule BUT I always have control over my diet. Like the saying goes, you cannot outrun a bad diet.

My mantra when I sit down to eat is simply

"There are no actions that I can take when I train that are more important than the choices I am about to make right now"

Bringing the focus right down to the here and now. The battle is won or lost with each choice I make at the table. I choose to sow the seeds that will make my dreams a reality or I can choose to indulge now and keep my dreams where they are... just dreams.

Every time I sit down to eat, I am in training. What I choose to fuel myself with will ultimately decide if I will ever fulfill my dreams, dreams cast in Iron. Whether I make to the finish of an Ironman remains to be seen but if I am defeated, it will be on the course, not at the dinner table.

There are limitations that I cannot avoid. My schedule is nuts and I have a life that needs attending but I would rather find out where those limits are rather than never getting a chance to try because I was too busy pandering to a momentary pleasure or feeling sorry for myself.

Life is finite and opportunities fleeting. They must be seized and not lost in the fog of some depression.

If Olympic distance is the very best that I can do realistically then so be it, my best is the best and that is all I ask of myself. If a Half Ironman is the very best I can do with what I have to work with then that is enough and I will be happy but to never even try, to never push past my limits to see what I am really made of, to not be willing to make adjustments so that things will change is unacceptable.

I feel like I am changing, things are in motion that I dont fully understand but I dont need to understand.

What some people call "luck" is really the intersection where preparation meets opportunity.

I dont see the opportunity now but I choose to spend my time developing myself and preparing until opportunity presents itself.

When you are navigating a boat, you dont take a precise course and never deviate. You take a general bearing to get you going in the right direction then as you get closer, your course becomes more well defined, more exact until you get to port.

For right now, I dont have an exact plan, I am just heading "North" because I know I need to head in that "general direction". Things will get clearer as I move along and I will get my exact coordinates along the way. I am not waiting until everything is perfectly mapped out.

I am leaving port NOW.
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  • v THEIS58
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  • v CAROLINA_KOUKLA
    You can do it - I like this blog.
    1709 days ago
  • v BRITTHORT9
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  • v KLONG8
    Whoa! I FEEL the energy and determination pulsing through you in this blog! I love your focus on the table (as that's a big one for me) and making the decision between immediate gratification and where you want to go. I'm rooting for you!
    1709 days ago
  • v LIVESTRONG2010
    My mantra when I sit down to eat is simply

    "There are no actions that I can take when I train that are more important than the choices I am about to make right now"

    I love this because I am where you were. I am letting life take control instead of me taking control. I am trying to take it one day and thing at a time and it's working a little but I'm still letting the bad days and things have control.

    Thanks for sharing. I know what you mean about cycling because when I'm on my bike and CAN do anything!
    1709 days ago
  • v TURKEYCALLER
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  • v SKNYMOMWANNABE
    Every athlete will tell you that their body is 80% DIET and 20% sweat equity so just by regulating your diet you are 80% "there."

    This makes your fork and where it goes more important than your feet and sneakers....

    1711 days ago
  • v RPBURRJR
    Your sister turned me on to you. Thank you for your words, thank you for sharing your journey. I am diabetic, and I am now in training. My goal is to run a 5K next year and to complete a half marathon in 2013, the year I turn 40. Knowing that you have made the exact journey that I am making gives me hope that I will be able to do the same.
    1711 days ago
  • v WANNABFIT34
    We are definitely sitting at that same crossroads where we are just at the edge of breaking free to reach our goals, we just need that little "tweak" that little something that will push us over the hump and into some quality weight loss.
    1712 days ago
  • v METHUSELAHRUNS
    Thanks! Great perspective and I appreciate you sharing about your struggles lately, especially given what those of us in the peanut gallery would see as your major accomplishments in finishing a marathon and then going out and doing a half after that!
    1712 days ago
  • v KITHKINCAID
    I needed to read this. Every time you sit down at the table you are in training. Thanks for that - it's SO important to remember. And I also love the boat metaphor. Might change my ticker to a little boat if they have one :)
    1712 days ago
  • v KKINNEA
    You'll get it figured out as you go - I believe it!
    1712 days ago
  • v LIGHTNINGRUNNER
    Glad to hear you feel you are on the right path again. emoticon
    1712 days ago
  • v IMSMILEY88
    Wow! I was going to quote my favorite part, but then I saw another...and another! You are on a ROLL!!! You are motivating US as you motivate yourSELF! WooHoo! I can't wait to see where you go next. Head NORTH!!! You will be ready when opportunity knocks! And, thanks for the kick in the pants about eating...I love to train, but don't eat well! I can't outtrain my poor eating! I've got to SWALLOW this & make it MINE!
    1712 days ago
  • v BLONDIEGRRL
    I just dropped in to say that I've been reading your blog, and I really enjoy it. You're quite an inspiration. I'm glad you're in better spirits. We all have our bad days ... just hang in there and it will always get better!
    1712 days ago
  • v KATHY_NATURELVR
    It looks like you have a great plan in place and I'm glad things are getting back into perspective for you.
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  • v MAGGIE805
    Great blog and I can relate since I too, am on a upswing. Best of of luck with your tri training and maybe we can compare notes. I just registered for my first triathlon in March.
    1713 days ago
  • v APIRLRAIN888
    like the boat metaphor!!!!!!!!! and yes you are getting it! and thank you for sparking this idea! I was in your shoe, i just didn't know it! thank you for bringing to my attention
    1713 days ago
  • v NIGHTSKYSTAR
    Sail on, Sailor!!!
    1713 days ago
  • v VEEJAY3
    Carpe diem!!!!! emoticon
    1713 days ago
  • v ELYMWX
    May your wind always be true, and the waves always favorable.
    1713 days ago
  • v CAMROLA
    There are so many reasons I love this blog--thank you for sharing your journey, and your insight along the away. We're all the wiser for it, and lucky to be witnessing your success!

    My favorite part:
    What some people call "luck" is really the intersection where preparation meets opportunity.

    I'm inspired, and preparing...


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  • v RIVER331
    So many great things in this blog. Love it! Thank you! emoticon emoticon
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  • v DELERIOUS64
    Thanks for writing this. A lot of my crappy runs have been from, well, crappy eating the day(s) before the run. I'm trying to get into the mind set that I am always in training. Cuz whether I have a race next week or next month, the choices I make NOW can affect my perfomance then.
    1713 days ago
  • v NANCYANNE55
    Very good point- There are limitations we cannot avoid, but we have to try and see how far we can get while dealing within the parameters of those limitations. That doesn't mean we don't sometimes look over the fence and wish we could have what we cannot have.... It just means we're smart enough to know not to waste any time reaching our own personal best by staying on our own path.
    1713 days ago
  • v RUNNING2MYSELF
    What a rich and inspiring post. Thanks for the virtual kick in the pants.
    1713 days ago
  • v MIMOTOGO
    Welcome back! We knew you could do it and here you raise the bar again with an amazing blog. Thank you Robert for sharing this journey with us. It inspires us to move beyond and accept the thing for what they are. Keep on working hard, YOU CAN DO THIS.
    1713 days ago
  • v SHOOPETTE
    There is no stooping your awesomeness :)
    1713 days ago
  • v LKEITHO
    I'm adding your 'eating mantra' to my motivational quotes! Thanks!
    1713 days ago
  • v SCHNEBL
    This is fabulous! I am going to print it out and hang it on my motivation wall.....Keep up the good work!
    1713 days ago
  • v LIV2RIDE
    We all have funky days but the important thing is that you moved past it. I think your plan seems like a great one. Everyone has to decide their own path and navigate the obstacles that get in your way. emoticon This blog has really made me think about my next plan. I really want to ride a century but not sure my life will allow for the training. What am I willing to sacrifice for this goal? Something to ponder!
    1713 days ago
  • v _JODI404
    Quote: For the first time, I genuinely feel like I am going to succeed in the next stage of my journey.

    Believing in yourself is key! If you believe you can't... you probably won't! Glad your mojo is back!

    And I could not agree more that every choice you make with food is key. Every one of the pounds I lost was from healthy food choices, freggies, water, limited alcohol, and portion control. Realistic -- so it can be maintained long term -- but healthy. My focus is now on getting active and getting fit!

    You are incredibly inspiring and I look forward to cheering you on in your journey! I know you will go far... pursue those dreams cast in Iron!!!!
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  • v VALERIEMAHA
    WOW! In spite of it ALL -- way to control your mind, instead of it controlling you!
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  • v MEGA_MILES
    Sounds like the perfect plan. "A cone of opportunity "
    1713 days ago
  • v KILTGUY
    So glad to see you take control!
    1713 days ago
  • v FITFOODIE806
    Thank you for writing this. I relate to your mantra about nutrition and proper fuel for training right now. That is my current focus and it is harder than running.

    An opportunity will surely come to you. And you will be ready! In the meantime, have you watched the Kona Ironman documentaries? I've been obsessed recently :) Hulu it if you have time.
    1713 days ago
  • v SARAWALKS
    "What some people call "luck" is really the intersection where preparation meets opportunity. "
    ABSOLUTELY! ROCK ON! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1713 days ago
  • v RHONDALYN10
    You are so right on target! Way to go!!
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  • v MICHELLESMILES_
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  • v CIVIAV
    Oooh, a voyageur for a while. Yes that's a plan for now. I wonder if you wonder how apropo your comments are. I'm feeling the love as they say. We've been going through a similar experience but you, my friend, have trail blazed where I am headed and that's what I meant by a voyageur. Your plans will make a difference to the way the Spark world looks. A million thanks and hugs to you!
    1714 days ago
  • v NADINEL
    We must train in order to be ready for our opportunities. Great blog. Great step in the right direction. I am cheering for you! emoticon
    1714 days ago
  • v DRB13_1
    remember to keep your family a priority. life is so much better with people to love and who love you - no matter what shape you are in.
    1714 days ago
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  • v ALLISONSATTIC
    Well put!!! Sometimes we do have to reevaluate and take a new course!! emoticon emoticon
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  • v AIMLESS07
    I think everyone comes to a point where they feel like they have hit a brick wall. It's what you do at that point that matters. Climb over the wall, dig under the wall, go around the wall. You just gotta stop running into it.

    I hit that realization in the end of July when I was at my heaviest weight ever and could not bear to look at myself in the mirror. Since then I am down about 20 lbs so I am back in my happy weight range and feeling better than ever. I started celebrating the small victories...even the little 1 pound losses b/c I knew they would eventually add up. And they did!

    I know you can get past this rough patch.
    1714 days ago
  • v KAMAPERRY
    This is the second blog I have read tonite that felt as if it were written for me. The phrase "Life is finite and opportunities fleeting. They must be seized and not lost in the fog of some depression." Whoa! There is no way you could have known I got diagnosed with depression yesterday. I need to find my mission again. Your blog assures me it is still findable, thank you.
    1714 days ago
  • v JMARIES51
    Great blog and I love the reminder that each time we sit down to eat we are also in training(paraphrasing). Sometimes just the simple reality is all about the choices we make, one step at a time. Thanks again for your blog.
    1714 days ago
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