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Just an Update

Saturday, October 22, 2011

This has been a crazy year for me and not much weight loss has happened. In fact until recently a bit of weight was gained, but life has been lived. I have been re-losing some weight that I gained this year the last few months.

I went to Paris this year and it was beautiful. I bought a new Anthropologie dress for everyday I was in Paris. Airplane seats are more comfortable now than when I weighed over 300 pounds. I walked all day when I was there, but I also ate bit too much cheese and bread and drank a bit too much wine.

I completed a marathon a few weeks ago, and that felt good. It was hard, but very rewarding emotionally. Less than five years ago, I weighed over 300 pounds and got winded walking around the block... and I did flippen 26.2 miles baby! That felt good.

Other things happened this year too. I got a promotion at work. I have been called beautiful by cute boys this year. I have almost gotten divorced twice this year... and I still think that is viable option. It hasn't been a good marriage, but we're giving it one last shot.

I think when people accomplish massive weight loss (160 pounds was lost) it does something to them psychologically. For me, it made me realize that I can accomplish things, anything I want, and I don't want to waste anymore time being unhappy. I want to soak up all life has to offer. I want to bask in the sunlight. I want to laugh until my stomach hurts. I want see all the things I missed seeing while I was hiding out in my house at 300 plus pounds. I want to dance. I want to run. It helped me feel like I am capable of caring for myself. It made me want to live my life to the fullest and not settle for less than I feel I deserve or am capable of.

Now amongst all this living and fun (not everything this year was fun)... I drank a bit too much and went out to too many dinners... and now I am ready to display a little more self control again. Life is about balance. I went a long time without having much fun... and I over did the fun this last year. So here I am back tracking my food and exercise again. I am turning 40 in seven weeks. Darn it, I am going to lose as much as I can before my birthday and I hope to lose the rest and finally reach my goal shortly after that.

Aww... balance :)
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Member Comments About This Blog Post
    You have been an inspiration to so many people.
    You can do it.
    Look at what you have done, there are hundreds of women on Sparkpeople who wish they were in your shoes...on the other side of a huge weight loss!
    Your amazing :)
    2245 days ago
    I love you, sister!!!
    2301 days ago
    YAY! Wonderful - you are.
    2316 days ago
    Nice to see a blog from you.

    2317 days ago
    Have missed your blogs! & can also relate to the year you've had.
    I think it has something to do with working so hard & dedicating so much time & energy into losing weight... it's nice to feel/eat/live 'normally'.... but like you ive also been careful not to let it get too out of hand... and now just trying to find some balance.

    2317 days ago
    Thanks for this kick in the butt, I really needed that. You sound like you are living you life fully and that is what I need to do. You look so pretty and happy and congrats on the marathon!
    2317 days ago
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