Saturday, October 22, 2011
I haven't been doing very well and am in desperate need of some support. Ever since my sister came to visit this summer, it seems like all of the wonderful habits I have developed over all this time have just been flushed down the toilet. I'm back at school now and I'm not exercising at all and I'm eating the crappiest foods ever - sweet tea, fast food, fried foods...and I got a job at an Asian restaurant and I keep loading up on the fried rice even though the brown rice is sitting right there and snacking on egg rolls and filling up on sushi. It's ridiculous. I have gained over 10 pounds back and I don't want to be that person. I get so many compliments from people still about how I look so great. I don't want to be the one that just gains it all back. And I'm having this realization at the worst possible time - holiday season. I suck at the holidays in terms of food because I am the most festive person ever and I love baking. And I don't like eating in moderation. UGH. Maybe I did this whole thing wrong. Because when I look back on the changes I made in my life, I kind of dread going back to it.
I need help. I don't want to gain the weight back. I really really don't.