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Toddlers and Mountains

Friday, October 21, 2011

Okay, I've been in a slump for almost a week now. Once I injured my knee and couldn't work out the way I wanted I just got depressed and sort of got the attitude of... is it really worth it.

I did change my caloric intake to reflect my lack of exercise, so something inside of me wanted to keep on track, although I'm not sure where it came from. Most of the time I have just been in this depressed, who cares, I don't want to do this anymore.....SLUMP!! And I hate it.

By nature I am a happy go lucky person who usually lets the chips fall where they may and then deals with it. But this time it hit me like a ton of bricks and it has taken all the strength I have to crawl out from under them.

I logged into SP everyday, except for a few days when we were having problems with the phone line and I couldn't get online. I logged in and logged my food and that was about it. I didn't want everyone to know that I had least in my eyes I had failed.

I think one of the reasons that I felt like I had failed was because I kept setting these goals, like, 90 minutes a day of exercise or 2700 minutes a month. Last month I got the flu and didn't make my goal....this month I blew my knee out and wont make the goal. I also signed up for the SP virtual 5k at the end of this month, I won't be reaching that goal either. Now don't get me wrong, setting goals is a great thing and I encourage people to set goals for themselves, but I have now missed EVERY goal I have set and that bothers me....a lot.

Lose 2 pounds a week...Check.....Missed
SP Bootcamp...Check.....Missed (fat people with bad knees can't do them.)
90 minutes exercise a day for 30 days......Check.....Missed
Virtual 5k.....Check.....Missed

And I could probably remember more, but you get the point. The hardest thing to remember is, missing the marks on each of these goals was through no fault of my own, but circumstances and life showed up and I just missed them.

I feel like the kid who never hit the ball when he swings, so now he really doesn't try,

when I should feel like the toddler who just keeps getting up every time he falls on his butt.

We all fail. We all miss the mark sometimes, some of us more than others.

I need to teach myself to be more like a toddler, even if I get hurt sometimes, I need to just get back up and try again. We were all toddlers once. Can you imagine what the world would be like if we never learned to walk simply because we gave up after the first few tries.

I have tried to lose weight several times, but only made a half hearted attempt or chose a diet plan that was impossible to stick to. This time I will succeed, no matter how long it takes or what setbacks hit me in the face. I have friends here who support and care about me, as I hope I do with them. I have a husband who is supportive and a kitten who loves to help me type these blogs.

I have a lot of good things going for me and need to focus on them, not on the negative. The negative will only drag me deeper into this black hole, and that is not where I want to be. I want to be on the top of the mountain seeing all the world in its beauty and wonder ,

not in the valley looking up wondering what the weather is like up there and believing that I will never know.

Today I choose to restart my journey back up the mountain, I sat down and took a short break, but now it's time to move on. I will never see the wonder of it all if I never reach the top. I can set all the little goals I want, and if I miss them that's long as I keep my eye on the ultimate prize.
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    You are so inspiring!!! Love your outlook and determination. Here's to us both not letting unfavorable circumstances make us ungrateful and bitter! (today I wanted to show the latter let me tell ya!)

    Like you said, we need to focus on the positive to help us. Ugh!! lol

    Anyway, I do love this blog!! You're AWESOME!!! :)
    2309 days ago
  • JOYCE12356
    I have the same problem with goals. I'm trying to figure out how to change my mindset from one of failure to one of success. Such as OK, you didn't make the entire goal, but how many things did you do successfully to get as far as you did? Reset the goal and let go of the past. Build on the accomplishments you did make.

    All things easier said than done. This is why I treasure all my friends who understand what I am going through and are there for me at these times.

    Keep up the great work! emoticon
    2310 days ago
    Hi..thanks for adding me as a friend..I added you right back :) Glad you enjoyed my blogs...this weight loss journey is like 2 steps forward and one step back for most of the moment I'm waiting to get back down to 195 cuz I don't want to raise my tracker up :( Happens to us all.

    I liked what I read on one blog about losing weight being like mowing grass..when it's really tall and you have to go back and forth :) sometime a couple times to get it all mowed :)

    Keep on Sparkin' new Spark friend emoticon
    2311 days ago
    emoticon Hang in there. emoticon
    2312 days ago
  • STRINGI719
    I know that everyone is different, and what works for one person may not work for another, but I have never worked out 90 minutes every day.... I don't work out for 90 minutes, and I don't work out every day. I usually get 20-60 minutes, about 4-5 days of the week. That may not be enough for other people, but it works for me. I think some people get burnt out trying to do too much, and I think some people actually overtrain and it hurts their weight loss efforts. This has to be something I can incorporate into my daily life and continue to do FOREVER, so I just can't commit to long sessions or to getting it done every single day. Life has a tendency to get in the way! :)
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    2312 days ago
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