Divorce Diary: Admitting it's over
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
I'm tired of living in limbo - my marriage is over and I need to quit calling my ex, my husband. I won't change anything by being nice or considerate. There is no reason to put his needs before mine. Civility is all that's required now. The worst of the emotional part is over. The steel bands that used to squeeze my heart are gone. Now the only pain comes from facing my fears about living alone and supporting myself. And it's time to enjoy the freedom to go out at night and make new friends, be social, maybe date.
Things I'm looking forward to:
My first book club meeting.
Trivia night with friends at our neighborhood bar.
A weekend spiritual retreat.
A trip to see friends and family.
Time and money for self-care.
Learning how to run my new business.
Making decisions without having to wait for someone else to make up their mind.
Not having to deal with someone else's mess or clutter.
Making my own budget and deciding what has priority.
Choosing what sort of job I want without anything holding me back.
Being able to live anywhere I want.
Not having to feed anyone else but the dog.
No more Toxic In-Laws.
Less guilt trips and more road trips.