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I've regained 100+ lbs. An Update

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

I was totally in control.
I lost 133 pounds in 16 months.
I was tracking consistently.
I was exercising consistently.
I was doing all the right things.

Ok. Maybe I wasn't.
I was under eating.
Over exercising.
Was not taking my medications
to manage my mental health.

So here I am
just 30 pounds away from where I started.

What do I do now?
Part of me feels too defeated to restart.
Another part of me knows that I have lost the weight before
and can do it again.
Still another part wonders what kind of toll this weight cycling
is having on my mind and body.
I know I'm not in a place to commit to healthy eating for the rest of my life.
Loosing weight gives you such a high -
regaining weight is a crushing blow that leaves you in the lowest of the lows.

I'm at a crossroad.
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LIVESTRONG2010 10/30/2011 8:51PM

    Man I so know how you feel! Last year I was at my lowest weight ever but today I am just 7 pounds from being where I started in 2009! This is a hard journey but one well worth it because we are worth it! It's just so much easier being over weight than it is to get healthy.

You can do this because there are so many out there with you in the same place.

Stay strong by friend! Blogging help a lot.

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ROCHELLE62 10/19/2011 9:42PM

    you learned a lot from the last attempt. figure out what you have learned and use it to formulate a better plan. Saying you under ate and over exercised is a good start. you will now be looking for sustainable methods.

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SUNSHINE084 10/19/2011 4:57PM

    You can do it! you will on your own time. What ever your goal is you are in control.

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CLAIRE94620 10/19/2011 12:22PM


You're story is true for many of us. Just turn around and take one step at a time. Be kind to yourself.

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PAMATX 10/19/2011 11:18AM

    Hi, I'm Pam, and I'm a weight cycler. All I know to do is to keep trying. Giving up simply is not an option. We're in this together. We will conquer this, dammit!

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GRAMLORI 10/19/2011 9:09AM

    Stop beating yourself up.
You can't change what you did.
But you can make one change today that's healthy.
Just one.
Then you'll be on the road again, and like DEBECKUM said, look at it as starting with 30 lbs less than your last start.
Small baby steps at first are hard.
It ain't easy.....but it's worth it.

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NEVERORNOW 10/19/2011 8:19AM

    It's so easy to go back into those old habits and gain the weight back. I know because I've done it too many times. The thought of losing it again is discouraging but you CAN do it. I know from experience that staying where you are won't bring happiness. If it did, you wouldn't be back here, right? You need to do it the right way - the sensible way - maybe under a doctor or nutritionist's guidance. You need a reasonable approach that will last over the long haul. Whatever it takes to do it the right way, find what works for you, and know that you are soooooo worth the effort. We'll be here for you every step of the way! emoticon emoticon

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MISSG180 10/19/2011 7:41AM

    I've done the same thing: lost 80 pounds, regained 90. It's hard. I had to be looking 300 in the face before I could finally stop myself. It scares me that I will do this again and end up regaining again. But I am determined to be smarter about it this time. To take it slower and be more forgiving of myself. And I believe that I can do it, and that you can, too!

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TRACYZABELLE 10/19/2011 7:39AM

    Nothing wrong with restarting but do ti right this time-- eat right and exercise then modify your habits as well. It does work . Good luck! emoticon emoticon

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FARLOWWOMAN 10/19/2011 7:23AM

    I can totally relate. I too, have stumbled and I am climbing back up. You just have to realize that YOU are worth the effort! You and your health matters. Life is a beautiful gift and to live it fully we have to take care of the vehicle we travel in, our bodies. I hope I am listening to what I am telling you. Why is it so much easier to give advise than take it? emoticon

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SUNYG5 10/19/2011 7:05AM

    Girl, we are all there for you!! As I told you before, I lost 75 and regained 30 of it. Can't seem to get myself back!!
Let continue to keep in touch!!
It is a vicious cycle...and it is one I struggle with ALL THE TIME!!


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BOOKWORM27S 10/19/2011 1:39AM

    Thank you for this blog. Many people do not realize just how easy it is to regain weight that has been lost quickly. I lost 154 lbs. in 18 months 9 years ago, and it was very difficult to keep off. Losing this last 25 lbs. has been much slower and easier to maintain. Sometimes I feel like I'm holding back an ocean of weight, and one day it is just going to come crashing down on me with a vengeance. If you have any questions... please feel free to e-mail me.

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DBECKUM 10/19/2011 12:53AM

    I can relate to your situation and I thank you for your honesty. After my most recent re-gain, I was so depressed and defeated and disgusted with myself. The more I tried to pull it together and start again, the further I seemed to fall. It has taken me a couple of years and only in the last two months have I been in the right place with my heart, my mind, and my body. It may take some time, but I think you will get back to that place. For now, at least you are still down thirty pounds from when you started instead of up 30 pounds. emoticon

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