Tuesday, October 18, 2011
the only thing I did right was exercise for 45 minutes.
ran a red light. $480 gone
my schedule for work only involves 3 days out of 24 possible days.
job market is slim to none for my position.
if second job doesn't come through, may have to turn to criminal activity to get by. (moonshine anyone?)
Seriously, can it get any worse????
I wish I could go back to school on scholarship for a job as a respiratory therapist. I wish I was in a long term relationship with someone who could support me while i do this.
wish my life wasn't so messed up right now.
I couldnt even enjoy my workout because I had to fuss at the kids to shower.
I have never felt so alone in all my life like I do now.
Surprisingly enough, I don't feel like raiding the refrigerator.
I am just sitting here, crying about no food in the fridge or cabinets, wondering if my bank accounts will survive the changeover from the old to the new bank, if we will have a home for thanksgiving.
super stressful monday is more like it....
off to drink water, shower and cry, read my bible, and pray the whole time, till i cry myself to sleep...
hope your Monday was better than mine, and would love to hear about it...feel so alone right now....