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I can do this!

Monday, October 17, 2011

I woke up yesterday and finally got the courage to weigh myself. I had been trying to watch what I eat but haven't been exercising like I should. I was shocked by what I saw. The scale said 153. I was under the delusion that I was about 146. Wow, what a depressing and humiliating moment. My sister had taken pictures when she came down a couple of weeks ago. In the pics I looked alot bigger then I thought I was. Well I have decided to make some major changes. I am going to join the gym here and also try to walk. I am tired of not being able to fit into my old clothes and tired of feeling like crying when I try on new clothes in the dressing rooms at the mall. Part of me still wants to be able to eat what I want and love myself the way I am. The other part of me wants to tell that part to shut up and be the woman I want to be. I would love to be able to wear a size small again. I would love to look good for my husband but mostly myself again. Iv'e done it before and I know I can do it again. Today is a new day and a new start. I am determined to do this. I know I can do this. :)
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SPAYYOURCAT 10/18/2011 12:55AM

    Welcome! If you use the Spark People nutrition tracker and exercise it will come off. If you have a hard time exercising consider hiring a personal trainer-they keep you accountable. You CAN DO IT!

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TRACYZABELLE 10/17/2011 11:34PM

    Welcome to SPARKPEOPLE! I know you will love it here-- I sure do~ You can do anything you set your mind to-- persevere~

TracYZ

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SETAGOAL1 10/17/2011 6:18PM

    Don't give up on yourself. You are the only one that can make it happen for you. You have the power to succeed or fail.

You have chosen to succeed.

Janet
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