Saturday, October 15, 2011
Here is something embarrassing I have noticed about myself ... covert eating. I don't know if any of you have ever done this but grab something from a fast food and make sure to finish it before you go in the house and discreetly dispose of the evidence, shoving it in the bottom of the trash can so no one will know you ate it. Or maybe waiting till everyone is asleep before scarfing the rest of the ice cream. Eating a salad at work for lunch then stopping a convenience store for a candy bar and a bag of chips to eat on the way home. When has eating become a thing of shame? It's like the alcoholic that hides the booze under the bathroom sink thinking the family doesn't know when they take a sip now and then. This is not a healthy way of thinking and I think a hindrance to my desire to lose weight. I shouldn't be ashamed of being overweight and I am. I can only speak for myself but it is something I have come to see. I feel like I failed. At what I do not know. But being overweight is nothing to be ashamed of, it's just the reality. I consumed more calories then I was burning in a day and the result was weight gain. No failure, nothing I did wrong, this is exactly how the body works. If I change that, eat less calories then I burn the results would be opposite, weight loss. Food supplies our bodies with the calories it needs to live, food is not my enemy. It is my choice what type of food I put in it but a twinkie is going to supply my body with energy the same as a carrot. I know which is a better quality fuel source of course and truthfully I like both twinkies and carrots. The question is which will I choose to eat. But understanding that this is a poor, unhealthy way of thinking about food and changing it are different and that is something I want to accomplish. I am tired of giving food too much credit, it is not an enemy nor a friend, it's just food. That is going to be my new goal starting this month (I know it is half over but I'm going to start now). Of course I am going to lean on God to help me change this silly way of thinking, this bad habit that I have allowed myself to fall into over the years. I don't know if I could ever do it on my own but what I do know is that through Him all things are possible. (Matt. 19:26) .
"For God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."
(2 Tim 1:7)
(The key words here are a sound mind people). I see a sound mind as a promise from God, a gift He has for each and everyone of us who wants to accept it.